okay. im gonna attempt to do this. its now or never. aha. tis gonna be a longlonglonglong post. beware. but you better not FALL ASLEEP okayy. tis bout the netball trip :D

































































sorry jodi =X it was just too tempting. moral of story, dont fall asleep when im not sleeping. x) there was another much more embarrassing one, but i'll be nice and not post it. yirong you know which one ;)
yeah. moral of the story eh. x) thats mr ben's kiddy bytheway. so cute can :D

these arephotos from the dinner on the first day :D

uh huh. shure.guess who x)go figure.

not very clear, but thats wanting and cheryl checking their cams or something. ^^^those are all random pics taken by a certain chewyirong^^^we realised she always has this same pose x)heheh. so kiddy man x)heehee. the handicap carpark pictures thingums. i couldnt take the whole body though =/FERRIS WHEELS ARE DAMN SCARY OKAYY.prettyy :Dmy hairs really messy. i think tis after the viking yeah? we the non school team sec 1s+cat. x)thats yirong taking a picture. x) taking a picture of somebody taking a picture. heheh.looks like baubles right ;) its pink too. its from ty too. x)bungee thingum. coolios :Dthe real thing now. cant really see it thomy veryveryvery first medal i received, regardless of whether its for netball anot. yeah, believe it or not. and its made of plastic. wow. impressive.

heheh. time for quotes. these are the ones i saw on the trip which are nice quotes. sort of.

"If you want to be happy, be." -Leo Tolstoy (he's a poet i think, i forgot where i saw this. cool huh, its kinda true too)

"Follow the light to the toilet" -HUIMIN x) (ohgosh. this ones just plain lame.. cuz she said we should leave the toilet light on.. like i mean usually in movies you follow the light to nice shiny grand stuffums right. i mean.. the toilet?! aiyohh =.=)

"Chew yirong is nice
Chew yirong is super nice
Chew yirong is nice" -CAT x) (its a haiku if you havent noticed.. i think its the best haiku in the world....... ah who am i kidding. heheh. i think cat's a *REALLY* good poet)

(this one's a short conversation)
Ms Tan: Jodi's nationality is sing.
Huimin: I think i also leh
(talking about filling in the form thingums. go figure.)

"All true. So was the fact that she wouldnt be able to look into her eyes, watch her expression, and see that she'd been half in love with him for months now." -some shop i think. yirong help me remember =X)

"If you dont train to be number 1, why start at all?"
and
"I dont train because i like training, i train because i like winning." -some sports shop. (ITS DAMN TRUE.)

quite cool eh. amazing what people say sometimes. especially huimin and her bananas, im so not telling that one. lets just say shes sicker than she seems.

HELLO EVERYBODY :D HELLO MY DEAREST BLOGGIE :D HELLO EVERYBODY ONCE AGAIN :D the great me is BACK! i know you missed me, no use denying it, its written oh-so-clearly on your faces even though i cant see your faces. ah wells. actually i came back yesterday, but i was too lazy to blog. omg. i have a really really daunting task right now. blogging about the KL trip. theres aLOT to post about, not to mention pictures. gosh. maybe i'll just get too lazy and forget all about posting the post. ;)

geez dont you think its bloody ironic im coming back at 8pm on the same day hj leaves for hk at 8am?! like, its EIGHT some more x) i think im suffering from huijie-sick-ness,whichever way you choose to interpret it (wahaha, no offence hj). already. see lah hj. all your fault. i think something about you leaving on the day i came back had something to do with it. no idea why.

i like avril lavigne's the best damn thing. yay yirong you're right. for once. and the notebook is nice too, im almost finishing it already. you're right. for twice. tis quite rarely that you get something right ;) i might post about the kl trip today, then agian. i might not. depends. on my mood. heehee x)

ah ok i got this handwriting analysis thing from yingxin's bloggie. and. yeap. speaks for itself. ******* The Analysis Starts Here ******* Cheng Jing has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. She lets new people into her circle of friends. She uses her imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people. erm yeah sounds pretty good. Cheng Jing is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. She needs to visualize the end of a project before she starts. She finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said she plans everything she is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Cheng Jing basically feels good about herself. She has a positive self-esteem which contributes to her success. She feels she has the ability to achieve anything she sets her mind to. However, she sets her goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". She has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, she will not take great risks, as they relate to her goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, her self-perception is better than average. In reference to Cheng Jing's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. heez x)She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. oops. When Cheng Jing slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. kewl x)Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project. She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Cheng Jing can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip. oh man. ha i seriously rock. i am one of the most creative people that i have ever known. x) Cheng Jing is secretive. She has secrets which she does not wish to share with others. She intentionally conceals things about herself. She has a private side that she intends to keep that way, especially concerning certain events in her past. erm yeah shure gimi an example of a secret(?!) pfft. as if i have one. certain events in the past? wads that supposed to mean? Cheng Jing will demand respect and will expect others to treat her with honor and dignity. Cheng Jing believes in her ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. She has a lot of pride. ha. watch out people. this is my ego speaking. x) YOU! RESPECT ME! OR ELSE! Cheng Jing is moderately outgoing. Her emotions are stirred by sympathy and heart rendering stories. In fact, she can be kind, friendly, affectionate and considerate of others. She has the ability to put herself into the other person's shoes. i. am such. a nice. person. haha sorry that's my ego speaking again. Cheng Jing will be somewhat moody, with highs and lows. Sometimes she will be happy, the next day she might be sad. erm yeah i see the mood swings part. but its not one day, not its not. its five minutes o.o sometimes anyway x)She has the unique ability to get along equally well with what psychology calls introverts and extroverts. This is because she is in between. Psychology calls Cheng Jing an ambivert. She understands the needs of both types. pretty much confirms what zheng lao shi/ mrs loh said about my CLE. Although they get along, she will not tolerate anyone that is too "far out." She doesn't sway too far one way or the other. When convincing her to buy a product or an idea, a heart rendering story could mean a great deal to her. omg no wonder i bought so much stuff during ORA. She puts herself in the same situation as the person in the story, yet she will not buy anything that seems overly impractical or illogical. Cheng Jing is an expressive person. She outwardly shows her emotions. mmhmm. no wonder so spazz. no wonder so high. She may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story. -.- has anyone ever seen me crying in school/ other public places? no i dont think so. Cheng Jing is a "middle-of-the-roader," politically as well as logically. She weighs both sides of an issue, sits on the fence, and then will decide when she finally has to. She basically doesn't relate to any far out ideas and usually won't go to the extreme on any issue. basically i dont understand what this stuff means. but yeah it makes me sound boring. People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Cheng Jing doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others. mmhmm. sure whatever. ******* The Analysis Ends Here ******* well. i sound pretty boring. so balanced. and so rational. so normal. ah heck. maybe normal is irrational x) so then, i'm not normal. x) ha. my 3rd post today. should be proud of myself. x)

ah lets take a look at my whatever-you-call-thems. In this order: Subject/Semester1 100%/grade/grade point

English Language/ 61/ B/ 2.8/
Comments: Cheng Jing is a cheerful and lively student. She is teachable and participates actively in discussions.

Higher Chinese/ 61/ B/ 2.8
Comments: A conscientious student with positive sttitude towards learning. She is also kind and sweet-natured.

Mathematics/ 70/ A/ 3.6
Comments: An intelligent and responsive learner who has shown keen interest in the subject. Keep up the good work!

Geography/ 67/ B+/ 3.2
Comments: Cheng Jing has an amiable personality. She needs to strive in a focused manner for percision to details in answering questions.

History/60/B/2.8
Comments: An inquisitive learner. She expresses her opinions well in class. She could aim to be more task oriented and focused in her work in order to excel in her studies.

English Literature/60/B/2.8
Comments: She is a pleasant pupil who is keen and diligent. She contributes to group activities but should aim to hone her analytical skills further to develop her critical reading.

GPA: 3.00

Character & Leadership Education
Comments: Cheng Jing is involved in all class discusions and shares her views confidently. By being others-centred, she can gain the respect of her peers.

well. all this proves that:
1) maths is my best subject.

2)I TALK TOO MUCH. (pfft. all the "participation in discussions" arent there for nothing.

3) maths is my favourite subject. at least i get what mrs ang is saying. And its fun too. like algebra. whee. x)

4) mr wolfe still doesn't know my name. everytime during his class i always wear my jacket and he cant see my name tag. he's never once called my name. and he put the same comments on grace's report. yeap.

5)ms tan is too busy with her trip to wales to write down our comments. well she may be busy with other things. but shes still too busy. either that or she forgot or shes lazy. which i highly doubt.

6)some teachers still dont know me well enough. there's mrs loh who called me "diligent". and zheng lao shi who called me "kind and sweet-natured". either that or they know more about me than i know myself.

7)i better start working harder or somebody namely the MOE might take away my EESIS. and no i do not want that to happen.

8) jap will most likely pull up my GPA. because all my jap test percentages have been at least 80%. with the exception of one test where it was 76% or something. yeap. i dont care. i want at least a GPA 3.6 at the end of the year. yeap. if i mug. and if possible i wanna 4.0. gimmi a 4.0. i like 4.0. tis a nice number.

ah pfft. im typing out this post. its a long post. to make up for all the times which i did not post. which is. ALOT.yeap. lemme start with yesterday.

hoho. SMO was screwed. i tikammed practically all the open-ended questions. so my thinking process is: erm. i have no idea what this question is asking. what should i do? no not panic. if i panic for this one, i'll have to panic 35 times. ah. i know. 3 seems like a very good answer for this. yes, let's write 3.

but it turned out i only needed to tikam 28 times. hoho. i knew how to do 28 of them. well yeah anyway that's over. i took the paper home and my dad is currently doing the questions. well. he's pro at maths anyway. not me.

well then after SMO me and clarisse and voonie and june and rachel and stephanie went to far east. and we walked. and i wanted to find a birthday present for my bro. whose birthday is.. 2 days from now. yeap. well anyway i dint buy a thing cos everything was either too expensive or plain ugly or i just didnt feel like buying it. hmm. ah heck. i shall just give him 10 bucks. in a red packet. that should be quite sufficient.

and then... today. hoho. fun x) we went for language arts fest. and then 113 performed. along with 108. and 110. and some ACSI guys. yay i liked our performance. but the P4s dint laugh. oh no they didnt. cant they see its supposed to be funny o.o mmhmm. well 108's performance was good too. and 410's. hoho. 410 sang. and the tune is really quite catchy. and they composed it themselves. and they had a guitar for accompaniment. ah its really cute. x) about charlotte's web. yeah.

and then ACSI's was funny. in a way. haha its about "The Crucibal". or however you spell it. and then they have this guy who's supposedly a hero as he died because he dint admit that he practised witchcraft. which he didnt. and then they have this other judge who's saying that he did. so they take turns calling each other "LIAR". ahaha so lame lah. but funny. x) so a conversation would go:

"LIAR"
"This is God's truth!"
"LIAR"
"LIAR"
"LIAR"
"LIAR"
"LIAR"
"Fine." *sulks and looks away*

haha so funny. and the P4 kids were laughing. pfft. no fair. ha actually its fair because ACSI's performance was better than ours.. so.. nvm. and it took me so long to find my dear Taonan juniors. who happen to look very small and very blur. they're really hard to find, amongst a vast sea of plain and polka-dotted and stripy colourful uniforms. ah well. Taonan's always had a really small batch. ours only had... 40(?!) pfft Nanyang had 120. hmm.

mmhmm. and then we got back out GPAs. well. mine was low. as expected. haha but i dint feel too down about it. see i told you my brain was addled and confused. yeap. i shall type out my results in another post. this one's getting way too long for my liking.

+I WANNA WATCH PIRATES OF THE CARRIBEAN AT WORLD'S ENDDDDDD.

WHOAAAAAAAAAA. KL IN TWO DAYS. TWOTWOTWOTWOTWOTWOTWO. i cant waitt :D:D of course there'll be a whole load of people i'll miss and a whole lot of stuff i havent done and packed. but who cares YAY NETBALL YAY RG YAY RG NETBALL :D

okay. today. lets see uh. RS. boring shit. math chi. slightly not as boring shit. ah well everything was rather boring luh. then. SPEECH AND DRAMA :D our lastlastlastlast lesson =/ dammit. i forgot to h and in my journal. actually i expected to. thats why i asked jieru to remind me. but she dint. but im not blaming her, cuz somebody once told me not to blame people when u forgot urself. yeah so im not gonna blame her. the end x) dunno. tmr i think go find her locker or something luh. whah. andAND we got released like 15mins earlier =D

uh. apparently ms tan made some urgent announcement for us netballers to meet her cuz she needs us KL trip ppl's info but she cleverly dint type them out so WE had to do it for her (and putting up with her scolding some more) well yes. so in the meantime we calculated GPAs. i havent gotten fench back btw =/ my GPA is 3.3. aiysh. not that good, but well not that bad either. im satisfied. NO WAIT. im not. im not supposed to be at any rate. but considering how much i studied, i think i deserved that mark. heheh.

i wanted to leave a note on 110's whiteboard, but i thought they might get pissed. i dont know, 110 gets pissed real easily. no offence, huijie, but ur class has alot of "strong-willed" people like you to put it nicely. hahaha, i rmbr that time rachel lim wrote on our whiteboard with PERMANENT MARKER :D mrs loh laughed. x)

mi n cj n yirong went to help everybody put their bio stuffums since we were nice people. we saw the guides people doing mass pushups. woohooo. so cool can. like you see a whole bunch of people going down, then up again all (almost) at the same time. heheh. but oh whatthehell lah, they werent even going DOWN. i mean, whats the use of that, u get sweaty under the sun for nothing.. dun even build anything luh. those people on the stage also. some sort of examples huh. women's pushup somemore. which like, needs half the effort or so. butbut im not accusing you guys kay. i was just thinking, you wanna do pushups do properly ah.. >.<

AND THEN 3RD LANG. YEAHHH. THIRD LANG ROCKS MAN. we watched some fench movie called tanguy today. for the whole entire lesson. yes u heard me. and its ton-gy in fench. not tan-guy. heheh. its about some guy who still lives with his parents at 28yrs old. and his parents are tryin to get rid of it. i think its supposed to be a comedy. SO FUNNY CANN :D I <3 FENCH and MLLE CHEO :D

ah u know what i think i shall update our blog linkies and load songs onto my phone so i dun have to bring my heavy heavy ipod along for the KL trip. okies.
&&TWOMOREDAYS:D

yup sherry asked me to come post. so here i am. well there's nothing much to talk about.

umm. yesterday was lit tea. hoho wasnt very fun. but the food was nice. ohOH mrs loh bought chocolate fudge with marshmallows inside for us. and it was so +sweet it almost made famous amos taste bitter. o.o oh yum so nice lah! hoho and then joy didnt want hers. so i ate it. x) thank you joy. so i ate two of those things. hoho and then i got super high after that. i was going to jump around. but i decided to be nice to 106 and so i didnt. but obviously i dint get enough sugar cos i was falling asleep during maths.

yeah anyway i gave jaime a really nice poem. ah i love that poem. It's by Robert Frost. hoho nice poem x) note the alliteration. Her Hardest Hue to Hold. and Dawn goes Down to Day. aah so cool. x)


speaking of maths, today some people were supposed to their mathetainment. but no they didnt. so instead we did algebra. yay i like algebra. so fun x) haha. algebra. al-jabr. hmm i gotta start do my mathetainment too for algebra. otherwise mrs ang wont be very happy. again. she's a really nice teacher. so we shouldnt make her angry.

mmhmm. anyway we finished our bio module today. hmm quite sad larh. ms tan's actually very nice. and we finished our speech and drama today too. oh pffft. next term we're starting philo. darn you philo. oh i heard mrs loh say "darn" the other day. i dint know we could say it.

oh i helped to carry planet zork to the koi pond. and i was walking very slowly cos i dint want to drop ariel's precious animals. so i was walking really slowly. and this little kid saw me. and she was probably wondering why i was walking so slowly. so she walked beside me. i think she was trying to find out how slow i was going. haha. so cute.

and then i saw practically all the guides doing mass push-ups. i say they shouldn't be doing women's push-ups. because. they can't get tired doing them. haha so its like what's the point lorh. because if they were being punished, then its not a big deal of a punishment. and if they were building muscle mass, then, aiyoh like that how to build muscle mass. a bit hopeless lah haha. HJ says her patrol was giggling at the 20th push-up. haha so funny can. x) and i saw kellie doing in her prefect uniform. haha seriously its really funny to see a whole bunch of people doing synchronised push-ups in the amphitheatre.

someone was trying to read my posts while im typing them. which he should not be doing. its really irritating. and yes i know this is a public blog but hello im still typing them which means they're not ready for the public eye. yes i see you there. so please do stop. its getting on my nerves. and people do need their privacy you know. even if have no sense of what it is. good you stopped. continue with your RI DSA application then. x)

ok this post was super random. because. i dont really have much to post about. yup.

ELLOS MY DEAR BLOGGIE :D whooooo~!!! im feeling quite hyper and stony (as usual) and im feeling rather guilty bout feeling hyper. cuz i rly shoudlnt be feeling this way. oh well. enjoy it while it lasts x)

well. we had our first dance lesson today. WAS FUN OKAY :DD 'cept for the fact that i was forced to be the guy cuz i was tall. hrmpp =/ its INJUSTICE to tall people i tell you. INJUSTICE. chacha ish like sooper fast lah. barely caught up. heheh. the tchr's rly nice too =D but she says that wadeva happens she'll blame the "guys" which is bliddy unfair. once again, INJUSTICE i say. so what if we're supposed to "lead" hehh. i did the funny gesture thingum. u know the one where you bow slightly and offer your hand to the girl thingum. ehehh. funfunfun x)

okay. what next. my thoughts are currently quite jumbled up. OH YEAH. netball. :D once again, it rocked, and i sucked. geez. GS is like the easiest position to play and i had to screw it all up. i mean seriously. i think i AM improving, but not fast enough.. and the thing is, i always FORGET to jump. which is plain stupid. shots getting better though. or so i hope. andand i have no idea how to defend/offer properly. nobody taught me before. ohwell. i guess i'll just have to pick it up. sprained my pinky. its kind of swollen right now. heheh. so funny looking. it'll go down tmr tho. silly little(or not) me went and tried to defend some ball but my pinky sort of got stuck between ama's hands and the ball. so, BAM. oww. and then after that it almost crashed into the pole. like OMG LAH lucky i caught the ball in time. if not i wonder what'll happen to my poor pinky ._."

and i seriously think im torturing ms tan's life. heheh. after training she said "i wonder why i chose her for netball. firstly, i have to teach her for pe. then i have to see her again for netball" (or something like that) after i said another of my spastic stuff. eheh. actually shes not that bad when we're not playing netball.. shes kinda funnyish. just that during netball ah.. *koff koff* I DINT SAY ANYTHING.

oh yes i remember now. lit tea. gosh im feeling so guilty now. can you believe i FORGOT i had a badbad cough. gosh. i ate so much chocolate stuff (note: i dint eat ALOT, i ate ALOT of choc stuff) heheh. chocchocchoc :D its the best thing ever. unlike ulcers. theyre the worst things ever. okay random. but i seriously hate ulcers lah. i cant even eat properly now. sheesh. mrs loh's fudge thingums are SO NICE CAN :D tho eating 2 or more is kinda sian alr

mmhmm. i should be doing my homework already. less procrastination, me. rawrr.
ohshit.

HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO PEOPLE :D im back im back!! missed me? oh of course you did~! :DD ah nvm. who am i kidding anyway x) well the last few days were kinda busy and i dint really have the mood to blog so i dint blog lor. hee. seems like i need a mood for everything. including running. yeah, if next year's napfa im not in the running mood ah, shure die le. heheh.

okay. about todayy. initially wanted to go with hj and waye back to tns but SOME bloody idiot had to make there be guides for recruits. so ah well. but anyways, i watched the RJC vs HCJC match for NETBALL :D YAY WE ROCKED. the gs was so so sosososososo PRO. grahh. its like she catches almost every ball andand she jumps so damn high andand she somehow manages to stretch wayway back to get the ball. hrmpp. i wish i could do that. they won champs FIRST time in TWENTYTHREE years mann! omgomgomg :D and some more they won by ELEVEN points. pro right. toldja so ;)

by the way. i am UNDERWEIGHT. shit lah. i have to eat more. i ate a lot for lunch x) a burger and 1/2 a plate of spaghetti. heheh. I DUN WANNA BE UNDERWEIGHT KAYYYY. shit lah. i mean being overweight is worse, but id much rather be normal weight than UNDERweight. like sab. lucky her. according to my calculator, my appropiate weight (100%) is like 57kg?!?! i have to gain SIX more okay. its not exactly very easy since i dun wanna get fat. the weight i gain should be MUSCLE MASS and not FAT. and also being underweight kind of means i dun have much muscles anyway. like today simone tried to teach me the hard pushups and i like did 2 and my arms were quite trembly already. bleh.

you know what. i like chocolate. this year i shall eat more chocolate so i wont be underweight anymore. wahah. those rjc ppl are very muscly. grah. so is SIMONE and KELLY and ONGCHENGJING. pf. maybe i should start not slacking. hehe.

okay you know what, i gotta prepare my with great pleasure poems so i rly shouldnt be wasting time now and i gotta find my lit tea poem. lucky tmr's an aesthetics day or i think id be staying up quite late.. yay x)
you know what i want, and i got what you need.heheh. yirongg.. ;) btw she pronounces it as chivaLry., not shivery or something x) what kind of 6 year old are you... i havent forgotten the blue tack thing also hor.. sighs.



im feeling rather pissed. because of a certain someone. a certain someone who thinks im supposed to do everything for her and expects my world to revolve around her or something. i have my feelings too, in case you didnt know. its not always all about you you and you. i need my space too. i cant believe i ever liked you that much before. gee i get pissed rather easily these days. dammit. what the hell is wrong with me.

pfffffffffft. i wanna complain. someone is unfair. well maybe not. but she doesnt know our point of view. im talking about a certain teacher. who i feel didnt nominate SLs properly. im not blaming her. im just saying it would be nicer if we could nominate our SLs. because the teacher's aren't around during class discussions. for RBD, orientaion etc.

(on a side note, this teacher said she nominated me in term 1, but i never did go for interviews. and she nominated four other classmates. so i ask her and she said "second round". but no, no one has told me to go for any interviews yet. i suspect she has forgotten. not that i wanted to be an SL anyway. i want to be a PSL. but never mind. i digress.)

see right, these people have damn good leadership qualities. doesnt mean that they dont talk during her lessons, means that they aren't good leaders. they may just not be very good at her subject. so they wouldnt dare to speak up, in fear of saying the wrong thing. but come one, she cant be that clueless. if she is, then well, she should let us vote.

and the people she nominated, well, no offense or anything, but most of them dont talk much in class. im shure the ones mentioned above would make much better SLs. i say this teacher is nominating the wrong people.

ack i wanted to bring up this during informal chat just now. but sad to say, i forgot. -.-

yup.

now to be happy and carefree.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BONG!! hoho rachel wrote this on our whiteboard with permanent marker heehee x) yup yup but nice her wrote us a letter of apology. x) yay yay happy birthday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JINGHAN!! hoho no one wrote this on our board but never mind, i shall write this on my blog. hee x) haha so cool both of you birthday same day. hee x)

well yes. HAPPY BIRTHDAY WAYE.its your birthday today(which you should know). which means you are another year closer to your time of death. and you have one more wrinkle on your face. yup. and you're older. agh you OLD person. you're gonna grow a beard soon. ohno ohno ohno. you cant be old. if you're old, then so am i. i'd be older. agh. no fair.

ha. see i dedicated one paragraph to you and your beard/moustache. hoho. my brother keeps saying that he's gonna grow a moustache and he says there is hair already, but i dont see a thing. -.- well yup. ha. actually by now its 2 paragraphs already.

agh my holidays are clogged up. especially the first week. let me give you a list of what i have to do:

1)FPSP. this needs to be given the most attention. otherwise i dont think ms may tan wont let us take part. yes. and also due to the fact that we dont have a coach. so we must do everything ourselves. but, as i will show you, there are a lot of things preventing me from doing this VIP (very important project) especially since HJ is flying off on wednesday.

2)JIANG omg this is the most useless one of all. as if i need chinese tuition which wastes my time, doesnt help me, and prevents me from doing more important things. eurgh. jiang is starting to get really irritating. especially since its everyday from 9 - 11. im currently hoping that clarisse teo will come for the morning sessions with me. so we can die together.

3)guitar practice. this is major too. i really need monday so that we can do FPS together, but guitar is from 9.00 -3.30 and i already have jiang in the morning so im expected to go for the afternoon session. o.o ack ack ack. im hoping i'll be allowed to just skip one day. JUST ONE MEASLY DAY. so i can do my FPS.

4) Maths Olympiad. well this is just for one day and its for 3 hours only, but its important too. its not like i can skip it. so what could have been spent doing FPS is now spent on doing maths, maths and even more maths. agh. like wth. and its cheeeeeem maths too. everytime i go for the training sessions i dont understand half of it. well i understand some. but not everything. eurgh.

5)Lit PT(with great pleasure). agh i know this isnt due very soon but i still need time to do this and not rush every thing at the last minute like i've been doing all my life. well no more. not this time anyway. and since my 1st week is practically gone, well i only have 3 more weeks to find poems and prose pieces. and jiang is taking up 2 hours everyday. see i told you its annoying.

6)math PT. augh this is due in term 3 too. but i also need time to do this. and we need to find time to meet up during the holidays so that we can do this project, but NO. JIANG HAS TO TAKE UP ALL THE TIME THAT I HAVE. grah grah grah. no fair. shoot shoot shoot shoot shoot. bang bang bang bang bang. ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch.

see i have given you proof that my holidays are choked up with lots of stuff. mainly work. and jiang. omg i hate jiang. i wanna quit. see people like zhang ying wen are alrdy quitting lorh. how come i cant. no fair.

hoho. HAPPY BIRTHDAY WAYE~! :D (i know you like pink. heheh)
getting older arent we ;) actually its not really that good to get older. cuz there would more more stml+ltml=nothing left. therefore birthdays are not necessarily good things. heheh. but nvm. still must celebrate. cuz celebrate=happy=good. even though theres nothing to be happy about but being happy is rather fun x)

okay. i shall spare u all from my crapping. back to saner stuff. see ah. i have made a list of why ur a really nice friend.hohoho.
thank you for-
1. being emo with me x)
2. being HIGHH with me. (:
3. being totally ridiculously SPASTIC (and retarded) with me. heheh.
4. contaminating my mind. well actually this isnt a very good thing but i would NOT wanna be as naive as chengjing liddat. aiyoh. she ah, everything also dunno de. x)
5. putting up with my blurrr-and-retardedness.
6. giving me nicenice songs ;D
7. coming all the way to bishan to get me to donate hoho. that one wasnt exactly very thank-you-ish cuz i had lesser money after that but nevermind x)
ah gosh i dunno le. hoho. see. so little x) i can tell you i'll come up with a dozen others after i post this. cuz thats the way it always is =/

wahooo. and since i typed this nicenicenice post for you, you can show your gratitude by TAGGING. hoho. so now u know this is just another scheme to get u to tag.
kidding lah(: (kidding about the scheme thing but not kidding about the go tag thing. wahaha)
LOVE YOU(: (in the completely platonic friendship-ish kind of way in case SOME bloody irritating people get the wrong idea. hoho.)

yesYES amanda is super rich ok!! her mum says she has 3 tennis rackets, 3 bowling balls and a guitar which is currently collecting dust and her mac is so cool and the flowers on her mac are cool too and theyre squishy and they dont smell like anything and her room looks like a hotel room and so does her toilet which has marble floors and marble walls and a golden knob and her dog is so cute and me and sherry bullied it but towards the end i got scared of it so NVM.

yep. eek >.< i called ms theng just now and she said now we cant go advertise to the p6s in their own classrooms and we must publicize immediately after recess even though last year's p6s did that but the teachers felt it took too much time well, yeah.

oh and yes sherry im posting about fps. yay ms may tan is letting us take part in FPSP again whee so fun oh but shes not coaching us and now me and HJ and joy and emily and JJ must complete an entire scenario all by ourselves before the first week of holidays is up and she told me to email her yesterday so that she could email me back all the things and so i emailed her but she hasnt answered yet so im afraid i sent it to the wrong email(?!) which she told me is just her name @rgs.edu.sg (?!) and she might kill me on monday(?!) ack i seem to be afraid of many teachers which isnt a good thing because then pretty soon i'll have to avoid every single teacher i know(?!)

but anyway, i digress. hee x)

hoho if anyone knows her email pls tell me. i need to make sure that i dont screw this up like i do to everything else. x)

oh man i seriously need to get started on geog and hist o.o yes i know most people dont have history but i have because i got 8 and under. or was it 9 and under. anyway all you need to know is that i have to do extra practices. xp

yeah. done.

hoho. im backk. forgot to mention. i played napoleon~ ;D yay me. i hink napoleon ish a mean mean mean person pig. SOMEHOW i always play the bad guys. i look very qian bian meh >.< hehe. wanting's moustache so cool can x) her part was sooper funny. although its only one line. and zhenzheng was pretty good at being a guy x)

okay. on to the netball openhouse. twas FUNNN(: actually the skirts just as short as our pe shorts. i think. well anw it wasnt that bad. so we ushered the p6s to the netball courts. and i was trying to be warm and friendly and approachable. but in the end it just turned out into a bigbigbig failure and i just seemed real spazz. along with yirong. shes becoming my disciple woh ^_^ so when we introduced everyone they dint admit they liked spongebob. BUT ALL OF YOU OUT THERE. i KNOW you do. just too shy to admit it.

they were pro-er than me. almost all of them were. sheesh. so depressing cann. but nevermind. i'll improve. i'll try. i WILL. okay back to more happy stuff. we were untying everybody's shoelaces. that yirong lah. know how to untie double knots. its not fair. and her shoes play cheat de. OH UM. yirong said wanting looks like spongebob when she laughs. frankly, i myself really do not think so. WANTING i know ur out there. somehow.sometime.somewhere. and i know u dont think u look like spongebob either. hee. yirong i'll get my revenge. ur shoelaces are gonna pay for it. muahaha. so after that we did random jobs for ms tan. and drank milo. yay. overall still quite fun lah x)

yep. then went to manda's house for math project. OMG SHES RICHHHH MAN. u should see. u wont believe her house man. gawd. and her doggy ish damn cute okay. and OBEDIENT. and abit sicko-minded (hehe. sab's foot lost its virginity. aahha. funny.) but nevermind that its not the point. the point is SHES BLOODY RICH. grahhh. i want your money AMANDA YIM. heehee. andand in the end we managed to fnish the math thing. no thanks to me, i drew the lines wrong way lah for gods sake. hoho. okays. thats about all. (: and cj wants to post abt fpsp now. or rather i think she wants to.

WHEEE. ONETHIRTEENROCKED RBD YEAH :D:D:D SECOND~! tho i would be muchmuchmuch happier if we got first. the idea of 1st for orientation and rbd andandand maybe even drama nite sounded sooo good. but its okay. second is GOOD TOO(: yayy ROCK ON ONETHIRTEEN. who ever said thirteen was an unlucky number eh :D I <3 113 FOREVERRR. we're good at skit thingums. thanks to some wunderful ppl who have BRILLIANT leadership qualities. namely ARIEL SIMONE and RACHEL ((: and also chewy irony =) woohoo. i find that name damn cool. too bad she doesnt =/ THANK ALL OF YOU for making rbd so veryveryveryveryvery FUNN.

dint experience the nervousness i had during the orientation concert. yayy. hardly experiences any nervousness actually. thank god (: if i forgot my lines it wouldve been *rather* disastrous. RONGRONG (ehehe dont kill me on mon hor) WAS SO CUTE :D I LOVE ONETHIRTEEN~! :D

i was gonna post about netball openhouse (which was funfun despite the bloody short skirt) and manda's house today but my mom wanna go out for dinner le =/ i'll post later. i think. i hope. actually the netball skirt isnt that short once u get used to it x)

hmm. yes 113 we rocked RBD!!! YEAH SECOND PLACE MAN!! yep. okays. then after we were let off late at 2 or 2+, i ate lunch. and then i went for IO. hoho during lunch me and sherry were being so wuliao x)" Aiyoh, why dowan go for IO?" "Aiyoh, yalah you should go lorh for IO." oh then yirong said "Aiyoh, you two need to get a life." hoho. funny x)

agh and then i almost died just now. i ran in front of ms tan's car. xp oh man lucky she stopped. i tihnk she's gonna scold me on tuesday. when we have pe. i hope she forgets about it. all about it. she gets scary when she's scolding somebody. makes on realise the importance of looking where you're going. which i was NOT doing. i have got to start doing that some time. xp

oh anyway then i went for IO. pffffft. i guess it was fun. but there were these 2 people in my group, who were laughing and laughing and laughing. bleah. and they're so gross. let me take, for example, a game where we had to interview each other and find out who from the other group was most suitable to become a kindergarten teacher. and they came out with this crap like "lets try and irritate them and then see their reaction" and they asked rude, senseless questions like "do you know you have nosehair sticking out of your nose?" and "ok, listen to me carefully...K, F, C. it spells KFC. Now, can you spell KFC?" well actually the KFC one was mine, but i was just joking and they had to go and ask it. bleah. and the KFC one wasnt very rude but it was senseless.

and then fater that, when we were singing songs, everyone was holding hands. but they burst out laughing halfway through the song, so they stopped holding hands and just lay back and laughed. so i just sat there. stoning. and trying to learn the song. eurgh i got super pissed at them lorh. then when they were singing "at the beginning" everyone was jumping at the chorus. and i just sat there. otherwise so out of place lorh. one person jumping by herself in the middle of nowhere. then came this nice psl who happens to be waddle vice-capt whose name is debbie. she asked me if i wanted to join her, cos um, she happened to be in on the other side of same line as my group, tho shes the facilitator of a totally different group. hm. so i joined her. and i jumped. and i dint feel so pissed anymore. whee x)

haha funniest part was LT as the mouse. both during RBD and during IO. hoho. x) so cute. x) hoho. "let us imagine that there is a catapult here. now, i shall catapult mouse no. 1 over. 1,2,3." 'BOOM'. [vivian jumps and almost lands on the cat but she scrambles over to the fridge] "let us imagine that she got catapulted over smoothly. now, i shall catapult myself over as well. 1, 2, 3." 'BOOM' [LT gets catapulted over as well] "let us imagine that i got catapulted over here smoothly as well." haha LT is funny without even trying x)

ohWHOO we rocked RBD. yes we did. twas fun. ever so fun. and we're performing tomorrow. oh man but i screwed. i blundered. i forgot my line. and we paused for 10seconds. in front of the judges. thank goodness sab covered it. oh man i promise i wont forget my lines tomorrow. xS

hohum. today. we had PE. jus that it wasnt PE. because PE is physical exercise. we didnt do anything physical. we didnt do any exercise. so we dint have PE. we just stayed in class and learnt more netball. which was fun. trala. heehee. ms tan is very funny. x) sometimes. most of the time. i like PE. x)

and then we had music. basically i stoned for practically half the lesson. and played click five songs. and then we had a break. so to the canteen we went. and then i almost had my jacket stolen by a certain jacket stealer who evidently loves my jacket so much that she was tugging at my jacket sleeve for an entire fifteen minutes. and then fifteen minutes was up. so back to the music room we went. and then i stoned some more. oh and then our music thing was super last minute. ha. so fun. and then we had rly lousy quality lyrics. but the song was ok. x) it was composed it 2 weeks ago. or something. trala. oh man i cant believe we finally finished our music module. hmm i liked mrs B more than ms chuan. hmm. she threatened to book me because i was playing on grace's keyboard which wasnt a big deal because everyone else was tinkering on thier own keyboard and its not my fault i have a problem with controlling my laughter. and i wasnt even laughing loudly. i was laughing SILENTLY. she shouldn't have a reason to do so. pooh. ah well. at least she's outta my life.

and then we had lunch. so i ate. munch. munch. munch. and then we went back to class. and then we had bio. and then we had math. we is fun. which is always fun. because mrs ang is such a nice patient lenient not naggish or scoldish teacher who gets bullied rather easily so we dont bully her too often. not that we bully her. i just think we get too disrespectful of her sometimes. yup. and then school ended. so i came home. which took a very long time indeed. because i went to KFC with selene and tingfang and ruby. hoho. and then i tihnk we stoned there for an hour. man i took forty-five minutes to eat a regular popcorn chicken. ha. and they said we're doing cha cha for dance module. and that it's fun. but we must be careful and choose partners whom you can bear with. hmm. i can bear with most ppl. hoho. but i dont think they can bear with me. x) im a clumsy person who doesnt lok where im going. whee

ha. i think this is one of my most boring posts ever. so i shall end here. x) yes i shall.

ack i tihnk i lost my common sense again. must have dropped it somewhere. because i know i did really badly. for everything. but no, i was laughing during bio. and i had a stitch. and i didnt even find it funny. my poor brain must be extremely confused. hoho. so here are the results.

so. it comes down to this. we're getting the rest of our papers back tomorrow. all of us sec 1s. im scared. im scared shit. i cant think about anything else now. i cant get it off my mind. its giving me an crap feeling in my stomach. i dont like it. i feel dizzy. woozy. i cant think straight.

i hate this. exams make me feel lousy. inferior. im an underperformer. have always been. an underachiever. i always understand what the teacher says in class. for most subjects (except bio and geog). but i never seem to be able to perform. no matter how hard i try; how hard i study, i cant. i just cant. its not fair. some people just do well at everything without even having to try hard. but i cant complain. no. i cant.

its not just the results. although they are a major ego-bringerdowner. its not like my parents will scold me or anything. its the guilt that weighs down on you like a heavy burden. the disappointment that you can sense on their faces. they make you feel like you should have done better. they make you think you could have done better. you almost convince you. but deep own inside, you know you cant. you try and fight back the stinging tears welling up in your eyes. but they cant stay down forever. and you know that.

you just cant face yourself. you cant even bear to look in the mirror. its horrible. a mixture of shame, guilt, disappointment, embarrassment and whatnot, churning and swelling up within you. you want to scream. but theres no place where you can do so without people asking you if you're alright, or where they wont tell you off, saying youre grown up and you should know better. and its no use hiding under your pillow either because pillows dont do much for people who scream very loud.

i dont want to go to school tomorrow. like i said, im scared. i dont want to fail. i dont want to have results that make me feel like crying. i want to be strong. even if strong people still cry.

mrs ang told me that i did poorly for maths. and mr wolfe said we underperformed. and ms tan was most definitely looking in my direction when hse said all those things about the time that people dont listen to her in class being proportionate to the scores. the thing is, i do lsiten. i do try. i always try my best. i dont want the same thing to repeat all over again in term 4. i do hope it doesnt.

i need mental preparation. and i still need to memorise my lines o.o good thing snowball doesnt have too many of them.

hoho. i dont care what you think, but think simple plan RAWKS. yesh they do. the lyrics are so nice okay(: only now have i come to realise it. strange huh. but ive always been a simple plan fa, just not so much of one, until..now. =) rawk on simple plan. ur songs help alot.

Is everybody going crazy, is anybody gonna save me, can anybody tell me what's goin' on, tell me what's goin' on, if you open your eyes, you'll see that somethin' is wrong..
I just wanna jump, don't wanna think about tomorrow (suicidal. yeahh)
We are the ones, the ones forgotten; and this time, the future is ours, it's in our hands
How could this happen to me, I made my mistakes, I've got no where to run, the night goes on as I'm fading away; I'm sick of this life, I just wanna scream..
I feel like I'm living the worst day, over and over again
I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare, I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair; nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is having more fun than me..
I wish I could of told you the things I kept inside but now I guess it's just to late
I'm trying to forget that im addicted to you
It's all a big show, it's all about you; you think you know what everyone needs you always take time to criticize me; it seems like everyday I make mistakes I just can't get it right, it's like I'm the one you love to hate, but NOT TODAY.
I guess it's no use, I'm screwing up ever little thing I ever try to do; I was born to lose
No you don't know what it's like when nothing feels all right, you don't know what it's like to be like me
wad can i say. simple plan rawks <33

and once again, i suck. screwed up netball training, screwed up eng (kinda) gonna screw up everything tmr. but nobody bother, cuz im gonna get over it, just like i always have, and always will. i'll do it. will i..? oh come on. we took so long to do 10 consecutive ones for netball, cuz of us miserable sec 1s. no, maybe i wont. yesyesYES i will. no matter what it takes me. i shall try not to be such a big loser and try not to screw every little thing up. oh well. geog. underperformed huh. oh plz no, plzplzplz not me. geogs like the only paper i give a damn about. dont let this happen.

well. what can i say. nothing. i cant believe my results lorh. i studied. i really did. i studied alot. i have no idea what happened. to think that i was actually one of the best in class for english in tao nan. sheesh. i failed. 19/40. twas just one more mark. i could have made it. i know i oculd have made it. if only i had read the summary question properly. i put in so many irrelevant points. im disappointed with myself.

and history. i studied a lot too. i studied it more than any sunject, except maybe geog and bio(which i know im going to fail). well. i barely passed. lowest in class summore. 8/14. at this rate im going to fail everything. if i do so badly at humanities subjects, and i'm simply no good at sciences, even if i study, well, im going to flunk everything, wont i?

to prove how lousy i was feeling, you can ask joan from 112. i was practically stoning during guitar lorh. i just sat there. looking straight ahead. in a "vegetable-like stupor". stonestonestone. i just hope my dad doesnt kill me.

hmm my aunt just told me that my cousin was one of the lowest in class in sec1 when he was in RI but in sec 3 and 4 he almost topped the level. pro lorh. i doubt i can accomplish the same feat.

oh btw, on a random note, sherry and yirong's netball seniors are all super tall. o.o gosh i feel so short when i see them. and sherry and yirong and rachel shall not tiptoe when i am around.


it hit me hard. so hard. it hurt. and i fell. hard. i havent gotten up since. i do hope i have enough strength to get up. and when i do get up, i'll keep running. i wont stop running. not until i reach the end. i might falter here and there. but i wont complain. i might fall again. but i will pick myself up. i wont stop trying. i wont give up. i dont want to disappoint myself; not living up to my expectations. all i want to do is to reach the end.

Maybe I'm just not good enough for you
And maybe I just don't wanna be like you
And maybe I just don't wanna know how low you're willing to go
I'm not gonna change, you can't make me whoa

You don't, you don't, you don't, you don't
You don't mean anything to me
You don't, you don't, you don't, you don't
You dont mean anything to me
You're what I never want to be

Tell me does it feel good to be like you
Tell me why should I waste my time with you
Cause maybe you always bring me down
I'm sick of being pushed around
I'm not gonna change you can't make me

simple plan has really good lyrics. for me at least. now i know what it feels like. and they're so not like some other rubbish crap lyrics which dont mean a thing.

its gone. just like i always wanted it to. but why am i missing it again. and its being replaced. by i dont know what. how come love and hate mixed.

ahh. whats wrong with me. i know you dont deserve it. im just being selfish and self-centered and not caring about your feelings. i want to do something about it. but why cant i help it. it didnt use to be like this. why did it have to change.

happy mothers day. or not so. i dunno if there's church today. and its supposed to start at 12 if there is. wahaha. i love myself.

oh go see the neo on yirongs bloggie. the act cute one. :D ahaha. she sho cute can x)

FENCH CONTROLLE on fri. so deaddd. i havent even visited the class page yet. i havent caught up with anything yet. therefore, i love myself even more. JE NE SAIS PAS. gahh. oh btw the way diane says that ish rly cute :D i have got to start. some time. just not now. heehee. did i mention i think procrastination rocks too.

i have a feelign this is gonna be a rly short post cuz i rly have nothing much to say. oh. my stomach aches. so do my arms (a little bit) i have a strange urge to go running. i heart running. runrunrunrunrunrunrunrunrunrunrunrunrunrunrunrunrun. isnt it fun. to just keep running and running and running and not think about anything except running. not having to face reality. because reality is ugly. yes it is.

u dont deserve to be my ___________. sometimes i wonder, did i ever go wrong somewhere to have u as my ________.
I'm a nightmare, a disaster
That's what they always say
I'm a lost cause, not a hero
But I'll make it on my own
I've gotta prove them wrong
Me against the world
It's me against the world

ORA day was fun. haha. i went there. then i saw sherry. then we walked into the hall. but it was crowded. so we walked out. ha. kays never mind twas random.

anyway my favourite part was the haunted house. yay. i like the haunted house. it was wonderfully scary. i was a bit scared. but i was laughing hard. probably because i was so scared, my brain got muddled and thought i saw something funny. haha actuallt its quite funny. there were these people crawling all over the place, and grabbing your legs. so i tripped over them and crashed into the wall. and then i got a sneak preview of what was happening in the next part of the maze. ha. and then i accidentally stepped on one. ha. so i said sorry. then her hair was covering her face. but i bet she was trying not to laugh. and then we got to the part where there was a door. someone was banging on the door from the outside. ha so i banged it back from the inside. then they banged again. so i banged back. funny x) and then halfway me and jieru and yirong got separated from me and sherry and shiyin. cos they ran past the people on the floor. and me and sherry and shiyin were in the corner. and we were yelling "dont touch us, dont touch us." ha in the end we ran past too. x) then after that we sort of just ran through the rest and got out and we were laughing. o.o totally different reaction from the people before us. x) it was a pretty good haunted house x) ha they even put on makeup so that their face was super white and their arms were reddish brownish. and there was this girl who was stroking a pile of.. umm.. nvm anyway it looked like tissue paper. whee x) wow. long paragraph about the haunted house. nvm it was my favourite part of ORA anyway. x)

so at around 12.30 i went home. but i dint eat lunch oh no. because i wasnt hungry. not at all. haha. i ate a cookie and muachee and popcorn and oh yes part of a gingerbread man. x) hmm. i cant remember if i ate anything else. oh yes and i drank lotsa water. yes.

hmm after that i watched spiderman 3. yay it was a good movie. haha. peter parker looked like an emo kid with his hair covering his face. like a paikia. i guess he was a paikia. sort of. jus that he wasnt a kid. hmm yes anyway it was a good movie. yay x)

yup. so here i am. and im feeling happy oh yes i am. no idea why x) trala. bored too but mostly happy. x) whee.

hoho. ORA day. nothing much to say abt ora, it was stuffy and really kind of lame. i wanted to dedicate a song but in the end i dint (ur probably wondering to who, but guess wad? i shant tell you. but i shall give a clue: its something rlyrly lame if u find out, so no pojnt pestering me abt it.). and we went to the haunted house which was so very fun. creepy, but fun nonetheless. the end. i dont care what u say hj, ora isnt rly all that fun.

then me n yirong n jieru n rach n bong n shiren went to j8 to watch NEXT :D yay. yayyy. YAYYYY :D:D:D its so nice okay. SUCH a very very nice show :D it was nicer than spidey, yes it was. its just the ending that was so damn ANNOYING. RAWR. i feel like punching the director. the guy nicholas cage was playing was sooo cool okay, too bad he was so damn fugly =p receding hairline eh jieru. heheh.

oh. when we were buying tickets we waited for bong shiren n rachel to come right, so in the meantime we let other ppl go in front of us. so when they came we tried to step back into the queue, then this woman thought we were cutting queue. then she said "u all are RGS girls right? u shld know better" LIKE WTF LAH. bloody b1tch. next time dont jump to bloody conclusions before u know the whole truth and nothing less. rawr.

then we ate chicken rice x) then we took neos. its like the first time in my life im taking neos okayy. and it wasnt a very good first impression since the place was so bloody PINK. eck. lets not talk abt it. hoho. then the arcade. i was in sch uniform eh x) they chased me out after abt an hour or so.. =.= oh then the guys came. chang rui, wen jun and waye. so we walked around since there was nothing better to do and they were in sch uni too. hoho. waye had to buy a mothers day card x) and i went almost bankrupt. sigh. 2.85 left. SHIREN IS A RICH PIGGY.

oh. my family are gonna watch spidey. and im not going cuz i alr watched it with hj. wahaha. so im alone at home (but with my maid lah) yayy. i think my life rocks. well most aspects of it anway :D

u know come to think of it, damn self-centeredness too. i guess sometimes it cant be helped. but it gets really annoying sometimes. yeah. moremoreandmore doubts.

gahh. traditional games today. only five stones was fun cuz we were throwing the thingums everywhere :D and SOMEHOW everybody else seemed to be throwing most at me =/ then had to sit thru two bloody talks. boring lame shit. i wish i couldve slept..

ohoh. then there was NETBALL <3 we had our first sec 1s talk today~! yayys. currently i am super inspired. grace said we should run at least 3 rounds everyday of the field. then we still have to keep up with 50 shots per day. then we have to do situps and pushups or something lidat everyday also (i think). wadeva, i am SO going to do that. i have to. i shall push myself. i desparately need to build my muscle mass lah =/ not very keen on the 50 shots but i shall try. trytrytry. and the situps/pushups should be able to lah. i liked them to start with :D i shall do 50 situps and maybe 3 sets of 15 pushups. and im gonna try to do the guy type one. u think its enough? or maybe too much.

take note that i am saying this in a moment of extreme inspired-ness so i might not be able to do it.. but i shall try very very hard to. gosh cj's arm so cool looking lah. but then again, she's been swimming since forever, and ive only started netball this year =X MUSCLE MASS. i need. and despite that super irritating talk abt SKINCARE (=.=) i am still very keen on getting a rly rly dark tan. so there. OH did i mention yirong huimin and i are rooming together for the malaysia trip? COOL HUH :D huimin looks so cute in contacts :D but its still not gonna make me wear them unless i have to.

gee the seniors run fasttt. they start running damn fast lurh. i was like omgwtf im gonna die if i continued lidat. but HOHOHO i dint. i paced yirong who paced some senior i forgot who and yirong i ran more than you okay x) cuz i ran on the outerer lane than u did. haha. now im super pissed with myself. i just found out i dint even push myself alot for 2.4. i started slow, ended slow, kept the pace. sheesh. i should have kept a faster pace. i KNOW it was possible. dammit. i dont care. next year im so gonna beat mrs loh's record. i AM and i WILL. mark my words. x)

too bad they ran 4 rounds. 1.6. ho hum. i wanted to run and run and run and run and never ever ever stop running.. think about nothing but pacing, running and just forgetting the world. even if i die or faint or something in the end. running is such a great sensation dont you think. maybe you'd say its escaping reality. but wadeva. sometimes its good to run away from reality for awhile to get urself organized again. its like u can feel the adrenaline pumping and all and ah it all just feels so good :D no muscle aches tho. maybe tmr will have. yayy =) okay. u all will think im crazy or something. heh.

then came 3rd lang. WOOHOO. 3RD LANG I MISSED YOU. mlle cheo ish still the same old nice her. and diane transferred to our class :D F1N ish rly damn unlucky loh, their tchr is so BORING can. his voice is like so monotonous andand he always releases them damn late ah. yirong ryl n sakeenah shld come to F1M yeahh. we have 1 week to catch up and mug for the controlle 2. not enough. and i got 13/20 for my petit pest. haha, like i give a damn lah.

okay u know what? ive decided the post is long enough and besides my bro wanna use and besides this kind of stoning is not productive enough. so i'll end here. byebye :D

im having my doubts now. maybe it wasnt supposed to be that way.

yay im happy. dont ask why. i dont know either.

lala i wanna go for ORA. but i havent asked my dad yet. hmm.

i wanna watch spiderman. and pirates of the caribbean. and shrek. and harry potter.

i wan click five's album. i wanna listen to it. click five ish nysh.

i wanna iPod. my mp3 has very limited space. hmm. 256mb aint enough.

i wan my CCA to be swimming. i aint getting enough exercise. or sun for that matter.

i wanna take jap until im sec 4. yay whee jap ish nysh. and fun. x) and i just realised i wrote a certain hiragana wrongly over and over again during the test O.O

i want my own laptop. so people will stop watching me use the computer. its irritating. like someone reading a book over your shoulder. i wanna VAIO. x) it sounds cool too. vah-eeh-oh.

i wanna be able to do a split. splits are cool. ha. banana split.

hmm ok thats enough i wannas and i wans for today. i tihnk. cos i cant think of anymore. whee x)

yayay i still feel happy. x)

HEYHEY (youyou) exams are over yo :D i thought i could celebrate. but no, with great pleasure just ruined my hols for me with great pleasure indeed. rawr. angry am i. and tmr they have some LAME-o thing for us in sch.. i wanna go back to tns. psh. some more i cant go back n teach during hols cuz of netball thingum (not that i dun wanna go for it, i want to :D) but i want to GO BACK too. (ps tis gonna be a longlong post)

wooohoo. there's THRID LANG and NETBALL (!!) tmr, too bad i can only make it to netball training til 3.50 then go for third lang.. =/ so long nv go for 3rd lang le. i miss it loads. mademoiselle cheo is just SO NICE lurh. laura (and i) make so much noise in class also nv scold us. she rawks lah :D then netball. cant believe im looking forward to it. its been abt 2weeks since we've done any ball handling. and even longer since i've done some real running. sheesh. my muscles are screaming out for ACHES. its been so very long since ive got an ache (hah cj, like you) i NEED achees to survive. i WANT to feel damn tired. i WANT to be aching all over feeling like ive just gone thru hell. cuz i bet its a good feeling knowing you made it thru hell eh?

and, i am NOT gonna get fat. mugging is fattening you see. wdv. i hope we do lots of running tmr. lots and lots n lots. just not more than 20mins x) i'll die. i havent ran for longer than 20 mins before u know. i mean actually run. geez, pathetic me. no then maybe they shld run more than that. so that i can proudly say ive run more than 20mins before. hah.

andand i WANT to get MUCH MUCH tanner. i wanna TRASH cj. ahaha. but i dun think i can. oh well, nvm lah. tans are nice, tanLINES are so not. so grossh can. especially my foot ah, got TWO lines luh. there used to be 3 rmbr? one disappeared le =/ at least my arms got like a gradient sort of thing, cuz the jerseys are SLEEVELESS :D

haha. after sch went to watch spidey with darling huijie :D elaine couldnt go ah. sadd. she had to buy prezzies (and i still dunno wad to get for my mom.. =/) yeah. then we ate macs (it was still breakfast xD) then we went to hj's house while waiting for the movie where she played songs on her stoopid little piglet speaker thing and i couldnt stop laughing tho she (and her mom) dint find anything funny. ITS FUNNY OKAYY.

spidey 3 is nice okayy, just that the ending's quite cliche (as all movies are) as hj has VERY KINDLY pointed out. hohoho. wad dyou expect, fastforwarding the crying/kissing/hugging/smiling/staring part wouldnt rly have the same effect would it >.< we were chewing gum for the whole thing. i think i chewed for abt 4hours straight. woohoo

ANDAND WE DINT TAKE NEOS. hohoho (gee, im rly starting to use this quite frequently. yirong, ur fault ah. damnit) dunno how long more it can be postphoned =p i am not photogenic. hohoho. there it goes again. nvm, santa claus is cool anyways.

ok yesh, i shld not waste time blogging now, i could be using it to do some productive stoning. and when i get bored of productive stoning i might start on with great pleasure but without much great pleasure. buhbye~ -sherry :D

because maybe you're gonna be the one who saves me.. and after all, you're my wonderwall

Labels: netball, spiderman

bloody. im feeling annoyed. pissed. irritated. whatever. even though exam is over. i thought it would have a more positive effect on me. obviously it didnt. well what can i say, i just dont feel happy. thats all. and i dont know how to make myself happy. because there is simply no source of entertainment in this house. well theres the TV but nickelodeon and cartoon network are not showing any nice or funny cartoons. and theres the computer, but, i have no games to play. and my speaker is spoiled so i cant even listen to music and chill out(which i seriously need to do). i could use my mp3 but the battery is running out. sheesh. i lead a boring life.

crapiwanttobeabletoswimeverysingleday. iwanttopushmyself. ihaventdonethatinalongtime. iwantmuscleaches. muscleachesmakeyoufeelgood. iwanttofeelgood. iwanttofeeltheadrenaine. iwanttobeabletokeepupwiththeset, butwtheveryoneissomuchfasterthanmenow. cometothinkofit, ishallgotraininglater. yes. wishmeluckingettingbackmystaminaandwhatnot. andmytantoo. arghiwantmytanback. ilooksuperpalewithoutit. likeaghost. hasherryibetyoustoleitfromme. gimmiback. nvmishallgetmyownagain. ishalltraineverydayduringholidadys. andi'llbetannerthanyousherry. anditseasycosyourenotverytaneither. idontcarethatswhatimtellingyou.

and i realise that its rather hard to read the part above. well i made it that way. you can choose not to read. but if you want severe eyesight problems, go ahead and read. its fine by me.

i wanna go for ORA. i tihnk. i wanna go have fun. but my dad wants to watch spiderman. nvm i shall ask him if i can go for ORA later. can go inthe morning. then go watch spiderman in the afternoon. ORA should be fun. and its held at RG summore. must be a proud rafflesian.

speaking of rafflesian, i called mr. tan just now. mr. tony. tan. well he wasnt there, so yeah. the GO staff said to call tomorrow. i suggest emailing him if we rreally cant get through to him. ah my bro's about to finish school. hmm.

i realise this isnt a happy post either. well maybe i shouldnt let you soak up some of my unhappiness. so, goodbye.

i wanna go to the library.tis fun to lose yourself in all those books and forget the world and the time and your frustrations.

hmm. im bored. theres nothing to do. and you cant study for math. and whats more you can bring in your calculator. sheesh. what kind of exam is that? especially if you're sure you wont get calculation error. no more challenge le. pooh. ha i bet i'll probably finish super fast cos i'll be anticipating the official end of the exams.

pooh. then after that im going home. bleah. sherry and HJ going to watch movie. and im just staying at home and stoning. aiyoh. whatever i do online is talking to sherry more than 50% of the time lorh. imagine what im gonna do at home. without anyone to talk to. BORED TO DEATH LORH!! damn i wish they had training in the middle of the day. aiyoh otherwise waste of time.

maybe i could start on my lit pt. find more poems. gain a headstart. start before everyone else. ha. and hand in a perfect PT. and make everyone super jealous. ha no thats not good ten they'll all hate me. naw dont make them jealous. ha just make them envious. yes thats a good thing. envy is healthier than jealousy.

or i can stare at the ceiling. i notice its been the same colour every day since i first started looking at it. it hasnt grown older(maybe it has but it doesnt have birthdays) or younger(no of course it cant) while i have (grown older) (and i have birthdays. beat that you ceiling).

or i can dream about sucess about the jap test. haha. lets see. i got full marks. x) highest in class. x) and i beat LT by one mark. x) haha see i rock! and my teacher was so impressed she gave me no more homework for the rest of the year, seeing as how i was such "a wonderful student" who has great "ability to grasp the japanese language". haha i see i rock.

YAH RIGHT FAT HOPE TO ME.

poo see how much im crapping? all because someone decided to sign out of msn and leave me stranded. its not like you can study for maths. unless you memorise formulas. which are so easy you dont even need to memorise them. sheesh.

ha i shant torture you anymore. stop crapping. goodBYE.

huh. mothers day coming. and this year i am seriously at a loss for wad i shld do. i must be filial u see. shooot. dono wad to do. me being the eldest and all. gah.

but that aside, YIRONG AND CO. got STALKED today. omg i cant believe i almost wanted to go with them to borders luh. O_O thanks to my slow-eating-ness (actually jieru sab n nadia were slower :D) i was not stalked. whoo. moral of the story, eat slower next time. like me. and digest properly so u wouldnt have constipation or wdv. ahaha.

whee. escape themepark :D i havent asked my mom yet.. HOPEFULLY. =/ i havent go before okayy. some more last time i was living right there in PASIR RIS. sheeeeeshh. my poor deprived soul. not as deprived as yirongs tho. nv watch spongebob before.. so sad lah.

EXAMS ARE OVER. YEAHHHHH. (there's still math but frankly, who cares.) hahaha no more mugging yeah ;) i realised i cant mug for a week straight. sheesh. and i realised (actually longlonglong time ago) i cant STAND just reading the bloody notes. i like assessments. and making notes. but just sitting there reading is NOT POSSIBLE. o.o oh. i think i screwed bio. and u know what? i wrote bigbig on the rough paper "I SCREWED BIO UP" thinking we would just need to crumple it up as usual. but no, we had to hand it up. and i think zhenglaoshi saw wad i wrote =X hopefully she cant understand it. but highly not possible.

whee. u all think im deep? no. i dun think so myself. you know what hj? i have no idea why im ur best friend. so many differences. (e.g height) too. many differences. you shld go get some deep person to be ur best friend and talk with her (or him) abt deep stuff that i simply dont comprehend/dun wanna talk about. huh. ._. i just dun see why we shld be deep and ask ourselves lame questions which dun even apply to our lives. but if u want to go ahead. im just saying i dont wanna. *shrug*

chill. im not being emo up there kays everybody x) i am still very much myself. oh. I CANT BELIEVE I REMEMBERED TO BRING MY PHONE EARPHONES. yayy. ive been forgetting since the start of the year uh. i know. great accomplishment for me. kays. i have to go finish 3rd lang homework now, so fri i dun have to chiong it :D actually ive been cheating. the dialogues sometimes i use translator de x) mmhm. so cya, and oh cool my mom's back :D

Let mercy come and wash away what i've done. I’ll face myself, to cross out what I’ve become; erase myself, and let go of what I’ve done. I'll start again, and whatever pain may come; today this ends, I’m forgiving what I’ve done.

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