have i mentioned. how damn proud of myself i am. i mugged for FOURwholehours today okay ^_^ okay maybe some of u wouldnt think its a very big deal, but it is to me okay, like, i havent studied so much..since..forever. not even psle xD (i know im a big fat slacker, i dun rly give a damn) whee. i better do ABOVE AVERAGE. thats all im asking for.. some more its hist n eng compo, like my two worst stuff lahh xS

yesh. i have yet to copy the exam schedule down. i have NO idea wads on mon. i asked lotsa ppl, alotta good it did. i just forgot again. not MY fault i have STML n LTML >.< sho. i think i shalt sleep early too. like cj. sho CYA~
i hate myself. everybody's so nice to me, but i cant seem to do anything for anyone.. seeing anybody in pain i suddenly feel at a loss.. i just dont know what to do. AH. why must i be the one. and yet they're still so encouraging.. UGH. im so sick of myself. im sorry if i seem insensitive. cuz i know wadeva i do i'll just make it worse, and stop treating me so well. i dont deserve it.