bloody. im feeling annoyed. pissed. irritated. whatever. even though exam is over. i thought it would have a more positive effect on me. obviously it didnt. well what can i say, i just dont feel happy. thats all. and i dont know how to make myself happy. because there is simply no source of entertainment in this house. well theres the TV but nickelodeon and cartoon network are not showing any nice or funny cartoons. and theres the computer, but, i have no games to play. and my speaker is spoiled so i cant even listen to music and chill out(which i seriously need to do). i could use my mp3 but the battery is running out. sheesh. i lead a boring life.

crapiwanttobeabletoswimeverysingleday. iwanttopushmyself. ihaventdonethatinalongtime. iwantmuscleaches. muscleachesmakeyoufeelgood. iwanttofeelgood. iwanttofeeltheadrenaine. iwanttobeabletokeepupwiththeset, butwtheveryoneissomuchfasterthanmenow. cometothinkofit, ishallgotraininglater. yes. wishmeluckingettingbackmystaminaandwhatnot. andmytantoo. arghiwantmytanback. ilooksuperpalewithoutit. likeaghost. hasherryibetyoustoleitfromme. gimmiback. nvmishallgetmyownagain. ishalltraineverydayduringholidadys. andi'llbetannerthanyousherry. anditseasycosyourenotverytaneither. idontcarethatswhatimtellingyou.

and i realise that its rather hard to read the part above. well i made it that way. you can choose not to read. but if you want severe eyesight problems, go ahead and read. its fine by me.

i wanna go for ORA. i tihnk. i wanna go have fun. but my dad wants to watch spiderman. nvm i shall ask him if i can go for ORA later. can go inthe morning. then go watch spiderman in the afternoon. ORA should be fun. and its held at RG summore. must be a proud rafflesian.

speaking of rafflesian, i called mr. tan just now. mr. tony. tan. well he wasnt there, so yeah. the GO staff said to call tomorrow. i suggest emailing him if we rreally cant get through to him. ah my bro's about to finish school. hmm.

i realise this isnt a happy post either. well maybe i shouldnt let you soak up some of my unhappiness. so, goodbye.

i wanna go to the library.tis fun to lose yourself in all those books and forget the world and the time and your frustrations.