Friday, August 3, 2007
heyy. you hate me dont you. just because im a GEPer and you're not. just because i can run faster than you. just because i'm better than you at your best subject. just because i don't think music is important even though you're really good at it. just because i'm pratically better than you at everything except music. you just hate me dont you. so because of that, you find every excuse to hurt and annoy and infuriate me. you try to get back by calling me useless and cowardly because i refuse to fight with you. i'm not fighting because its ridiculous and stupid and you could get hurt. you forget, i'm stronger than you. its really not fair. whyy.
and i have never said the F word before and i dont intend to start now. but if you keep doing this, i cant control myself any longer. its not like i can erase it from my memory or vocabulary. its not like that. i dont want to say it, because its the most vulgar word i cant think of right now.
why do you constantly keep hurting me like that. today i'm actually free enough to go watch a movie. and our dad asked me to go check the newspaper. like the busybody that you are, you rushed ahead to get it and look at it yourself. bear in mind that its your fault. despite you rushing ahead, i actually found it before you did. and trying to snatch it away from me, you tore it.then you kicked up such a big fuss about how i wanted to get the newspaper so you couldnt see and i pushed you and all that garbage. i never want to watch a movie with you ever again. and you say its my fault that now you cant go watch a movie. what nonsense. its because of you that you ruined my only chance to catch a movie this year. i havent watched harry potter or transformers or any of those movies that should be watched. i used to have a life until you took it away from me.
you really hate me dont you. just for the joy of watching me suffer. sadist.
you should know, that my patience has its limits. i've been waiting and waiting for you to grow up and be responsible for your own actions ever since i realised you were never going to do so (ironic, isnt it?). i dont know when you're going to infuriate me to that point, but i hope you dont. i'm only human, for goodness sake. you should have realised that by now. unless you are the ignorant pig that you look like and act like. please. dont do that again. when my fuse blows, well, you don't want to be around. i wouldn't want to be around either.
hmm. funny thing, how whenever i'm upset, my choice of words and language look so sophisticated. and when i'm sad, i'm not filled with misery about how nothing is going my way. its more of why the person who made me sad doesnt realise that he (it's always he) is in the wrong.
