heh. i basically slacked the day away. darnn. =/ i've got so much hw lurhh. and i dint even go training. that's just crap lurh. if i keep this up, by the time i finish JC, i'll be just a lazy blob who has accomplished nothing. with glasses so thick that you could use it as protection from nuclear bombs. sheesh that's what you get from stoning and staring at the computer screen all day.

I HAVENT STARTED ON ANY HOMEWORK OKAY. because i cant get started. its not the 'doing' that's difficult. its that 'getting started' part. somehow i find it difficult to sit down and do homework. even math. its not algebra anymore. its just some lousy shapes. is it? i havent loooked at the worksheet yet =x

i need motivation i tell you. like.. incentives. or threats. although i would very much prefer incentives to threats. heh. you could always offer me an iPod if i got above 3.2 for my GPA. :D or you could threaten to kill me if i got below 3 again. but then if i got below 3 i would probably kill myself so that threat would be rather useless wouldnt it. x) heh no i'm not actually gonna commit suicide no thankyou procrastinating is so much more fun that its not worth it. besides, i'm afraid of pain anyway. x)

sheesh one reason why i'm not studying is the fact that i've never studied hard once in my life since i was P1. mostly because there wasnt anyone to force me to study. darnn. i dint study for P1. or P2. or P3. by the time i was P4 i was so used to not studying that i dint study. and it was the same for P5. but i dint make any effort to study. because. i wasnt doing particularly badly for any certain subject. except science. but i wasnt in remedial anyway. and i was training a lot. so whenever i saw people doing better than me, i just gave myself excuses that they could do better than me because i was in a sports CCA that trained even during the weekends. and sometimes there would be competitions that lasted for 3 days. heh. so i guess i never really studied until i was P6. in P6 i dint really study either. only for science. not math or english or chinese or anything else. and in the end my T-score was still not bad.

so i guess there's kinda no motivation whatsoever for me. =/ why do so many people do their homework before the holidays end anyway. i mean, you could always just do a lousy last minute job and hand it in and convince people that you're really not that good so they wouldnt have such high expectations of you and neither would you.

i guess. everything would have to depend on how much i improve by the end of the year. =x