i want a 3.2 for chinese D:
which means 45/70 for zuowen because i know i won't get 3.6/4.0 because that's what your chinese turns out to be if you go to jiang -.- last year i got 45! and if i don't get 45 my GPA will be LOWLOWLOWLOWLOW. which equals bad. i want a high GPA D: or at least a better-than-last-year-GPA i'm actually studying for it can you believe it O:

which is quite something because i've never studied for anything in my entire life (bloodtest haha) okay i will be VERY HAPPY with 3.6, happy with 3.5, and satisfied with 3.4. and then at EOYs i will actually start mugging 2 weeks before. damn EOYs are just after children's day. shucks.

but we shall focus on the issue at hand. first there's EOYs, then there's EOY results *heartattacks* and then there's jakarta! i am working hard, so very much, for all this. (:

darnn i wish i was some super smart GEPer, not a smart-but-not-that-smart GEPer so i could uhh ace everything and get scholarships and stuff.

today was.. okay. i expected to do much worse than what i did. x)
shuomingwen was awoweuihofkghsl. i hope i get around 45++ this time. ><
history too. i did my last question in like 15 or twenty minutes. i was like seriously panicking and my handwriting was like amg so messy. x) and my points werent well elaborated and supported and all that crap i think im going to barely pass or fail that section aaaaaaaaaaah.

but nevermind thats over, im never gonna look back on it and regret anymore. MOVE ON BUDDY. look forward! to...lit. agh.
hahah yay math is last exam, lets all go out on the day before the math exam. x) hey philo people do you have to study for philo? =X if you do well thats too bad.

yay i have bubble tea you dont :D

im sad.
1. i couldnt go eat ben and jerrys today. everyone else in the world went. even my sister dammit. ive only eaten ben and jerrys twice in my miserable life. and everyone had fun eating ice cream when i wasnt. ):
2. im going to fail physics. dont try to cheer me up or anything. cause it wont help. cause i know my standard and i know i AM going to fail.
3. my shuo ming wen is fucking screwed up. i cant write. but jiayi at least i didnt need to use your snoopy tissues and like cry in front of everybody.
4. history is so dead. i dont know how to link, dont know how to PEEL properly, dont know how to phrase properly, heck i havent even memorised the points!
5. my mom is caning my brother right now. he so deserves it. i, however, do not deserve to hear all his stupid screaming. not like it hurts so bad right. idiot. told you to do your homework, dont want to do huo gai lah.
6. i dont have im yours by jason mraz in my itunes and youtube doesnt have the repeat function.
7. i havent felt like hugging anyone in ages.
8. i dont know what im thinking now. i thnk im stupid. i think im oversensitive. i think i think too much. or maybe im in denial or something
9. huijie youll read this and ask why i didnt come tell you again but thing is i dont know how to so i dont.
10. i get bullied too much and i dont do anything about it. im not even sure i want to do anything about it.
11. im losing the ability to express myself effectively.
12. above everything else, there's still that expectation of me that i have to live up to. as in, the being happy and cheerful and crazily high all the time one. so even when im sad i have to either not show it or get over it quick. or people'd know theres something wrong with me and get all concerned and i dont like that cause it makes me feel like crying even more.
13. this post wouldnt make a difference to anybody at all.
14. i still want ben and jerrys.

dad:"you must smile more! always not smiling one, nobody want to talk to you. also ah, when you talk to people cannot just give monosyllablic replies, you must learn to express yourself! dont just say no, talk abit more! you also cannot be so rude, if you say ya la ya la to people all the time, they wouldnt like you right!"

dude, its just to you. i dont do that to anyone else.

"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes?
Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?
Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?
"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin.
Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these.
If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith?
So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?'
For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them.
But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.
Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
Matthew 6:25-34

for all those people out there who are freaking out because of the exams tomorrow (:
like chin. and dionne.

CLE WAS INTERESTING TODAY, for once…,

Ms Ong: “ Okay class, lets share with everyone else what we do when we’re stressed ! I hope this will be a de-stresser for you for your upcoming MYAs! Okay! Let’s go one by one ! “

The Weird Replies


“ Uh, you see right, my walls have a lot of small bugs. So when I’m stressed…yeah…I just go around the house killing all of them…heehee…”( Chris)

(matter-of-factly) “ I do maths.” ( * Cue gasps of shock and disbelief )(Siying)


“ Oh,I buy lots of notebooks and write loads of to-do-lists inside. Then I lose the notebook and then find it again one year later, and go , “ Oho! I haven’t done lots of stuff! Darn !” Then I get all stressed again…”( Sarah)“ I open and close windows, and then I ride up and down on the elevator!”(Shawna)

“ Chocolate.”(Peixuan)

“I bang loudly on my keyboard, and then I go shooting and pretend that I’m shooting someone …”(Jiayi)

“ I read physics books, and I watch Myth busters! It’s rather interesting; especially the violent parts where they blow up cement trucks!”(Yvonne)

“My house has lots of small flying ants, so you know I have this sharpener with this hole inside? Yeah, I go around and try to catch the flying ants with my sharpener…”( JJ)

“ When I’m bored, I walk to the nearest Video Ezy and borrow the most mindless, brainless, or sad movies I can find. Then I go home and watch them. And then…and then…I get all enlightened…ha..ha…ha………….” ( Shiyin)

“ OHHHHHhhhhh…( sound of gears working) ….I read my sister’s kiddy books.”(Sherry)

“ I go to DISCO!”( Dionne)

“I pop bubble wrap. I can spend two whole hours doing that.” ( Ms Ong! )

courtesy of denise (:

hey world(: i love our blog titles.

i went on facebook today! after 19835485 days. i have like 2 friend requests and like 251 other requests. whoops. stupid facebook.

agh i didnt bring my physics journal home! stupid stupid stupid.
stayed back to "study" in school today with cheng and huijie and claudia and jinghan. didnt do any studying at all. whoops. x) but it was very fun. hee. on the bus home i watched deal or no deal! HAHAH THE LOSER PERSON BROUGHT $20 DOLLARS HOME IN THE END. STUPID. HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA.
i think im a teensy bit sadistic.
sorry jinghan buddy for making you take 36 with me and like reaching my stop at 7.30 and probably reaching home really late. ):

from denise's blog

I'M GOING TO ANNOUNCE TODAY THAT SHERILYN LIEW is a bully.
During assembly, when we were just standing there before singing the school
song, she just stood behind me and like...just towered over me. She was looking
down at me pompously and puffing out her chest and grinning like a mad
cow.

Then we were asked to raise our hands and then she kind of just raised up
to her elbow and I had to stretch my whole arm to make it higher than hers. Than
she kind of smiled trumphiantly and raised the entire length of her monkey-like
arms. Goodness. My arm looked quite pathethic.

Oh, today, Jiayi and I were discussing how much Sherry and David seem so
much like each other.

1) They both like asking weird questions. " What is PMS"(david, with great
interest, demanding diagrams and detailed explanations) or " BIGGG SWEEEPING
STATEMENTS ! "( and sherry starts flaying her arm around in a big sweeping
gesture like she's bestowing the gift of love upon all of us little people or
something)

2) They even look alike. Not that Sherry looks like a boy or that David
looks like a girl, its just that they ALWAYS HAVE THAT SAME EXPRESSION. The one
thats all,
"I'm-going-to-act-expressionless-and-I-shall-ignore-you-and-when-I-smile-I-shall-look-crazed"
kind of look.

3) Moodswings. PMS. Whatever.

4) Both are alarmingly tall. 180 or something.

5) Smile retardedlyDid you know, that both of them spend –50% of the time
smiling retardedly10% of the time looking on everything around them with mild
interest “ ISTONE” face30% asking bizarre questions10% of the time startling
everyone with their sudden show of "intellect "

hahah she's mentally unsound dont believe a word of it. who's this david guy o.o

PHYSICS! i think im really going to fail it. mr ho ho ho please do some huge revision thing soon ): you have like tomorrow to do it.
agh.

aesthetics today was really amusing cause the dough thingy was damn sticky, steph and i were struggling with it. the dough won. it glued itself to our fingers and refused to come off. it was still kinda fun though.

ive been thinking. how lucky i am to have parents who are christians (although they became christians after i did). and that i get to even get to go to church. i think i shouldnt take service for granted. must pay attention.

HAHAHA I AM HAPPY BUDDIES :D

guess why. because i mugged history today! i feel sorta accomplished. i never knew mugging could be so satisying :D i turned everything into huge graphic organisers on the whiteboard (i need space) with minimal reference to the notes :D so now i know the push and pull factors by heart, and also the factors leading to the fall of singapore! HJ says we might need to know the contributions of the immigrants to singapore, so yeah i'll study that too.

actually it was quite fun to mug in school because i was singing (more than) half the time. i can never do that at home. and also because everyone was gone. and no one was around. so no one could hear me sing. :D

i love our class :D we were awesome during s&d. (the ones who performed anyway) mr. hogan says no other class is as crazy as ours because we allow each other to uhh demonstrate our talents, or something along those lines. :D like some class just go in and sit in a circle or 3 rows. sometimes we'll sit in a parabolic curve, or sometimes we'll go and sit in a J, or sometimes we'll sit in an oval! hehe x)

my tooth got chipped off. part of it. a small part. something hit my head, but i can't remember how and i can't remember what and i'm not even sure that the blow chipped off part of my tooth. hah.

i will make a graphic organiser for the contributions tomorrow. :D then i will start mugging geog. somewhere between now and then i will read the whale rider and memorise some quotes and try and remember main events and the tone/atmosphere of the passage which conveyed the main event.

when everything is going wrong
and things are just a little strange
it's been so long now
you've forgotten how to smile
and over head the skys are clear
but it still seems to rain on you
and your only friends all have better things to do

when you're down and lost
and you need a helping hand
when you're down and lost along the way
oh just tell yourself ahh,
I'll be okay

now things are only getting worse
and you need someone to take the blame
when the love has gone
there's no one to share the pain
been sleepin with the tv on
and lying in an empty bed
all the alcohol in the world would never help me to forget

youre not alone

when you're down and lost
and you need a helping hand
when you're down and lost along the way
try a little harder
try your best to make it through the day
oh just tell yourself,
ahh, I'll be okay
-I'll be okay, McFly

shucks i want my dinner nownownow.

aw.
it seems everybody's sad and stressed and angsty and emo and depressed and pmsy recently.
nevermind!
i'll be here to cheer all of you sad souls out there up! (:
although i cant really cheer people up.
i'm going to be there when everybody else needs me, im not gonna weigh anyone else down with all of my problems. well except you jodi i cant help it so im sorry x)
so say yay!
yay!
:D

yes yes i know it's really late and i haven't finished my homework but i really have got to say this:

shakespeare 24 was pretty cool :D haha hwachong's 'the twelfth night' was funny x) much better than loose canon art's which was pretty confusing and they've got accents so yeah. RI's macbeth wasn't as funny as HCI's and RJ's, RJ's midsummer night's dream was not bad, yeah, but i think i liked hwachong's the best :D

*Viola writes down what she thinks Olivia is dictating*
Olivia: ...and, i love thee.
Viola: oh.
Olivia: i love THEE.
Viola (takes one step back): OH.

okay back to geog/history

I CAN DO THIS.
I WILL DO THIS.
REALLY.
I WILL NOT GET DISTRACTED.
I WILL NOT THINK ABOUT ANYTHING ELSE.
I WILL NOT BE SAD OR HAPPY OR ANYTHING.
I WILL ATTEMPT TO DROWN MYSELF IN HOMEWORK/REVISION.
I WILL.

oh yay my mom bought food home!
ah shoots who am i kidding im so useless ill never get anything done.

dis·tance
Audio Help /ˈdɪstəns/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[dis-tuhns] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation noun, verb, -tanced, -tanc·ing.
–noun
1. the extent or amount of space between two things, points, lines, etc.
2. the state or fact of being apart in space, as of one thing from another; remoteness.
3. an expanse; area: A vast distance of water surrounded the ship.
4. the interval between two points of time; an extent of time: His vacation period was a good distance away.
6. remoteness or difference in any respect: Our philosophies are a long distance apart.
7. an amount of progress: We've come a long distance on the project.
8. absence of warmth; reserve: Their first meeting in several years was hampered by a certain distance between them.
–verb (used with object)
9. to leave behind at a distance, as at a race; surpass.
—Idioms
10. go the distance, Informal. to finish or complete something, esp. something difficult, challenging, or requiring sustained effort.
20. keep at a distance, to treat coldly or in an unfriendly manner.
21. keep one's distance, to avoid becoming familiar or involved; remain cool or aloof.

from dictionary.com

this is gonna be one busy week along with the first half of next week! i will not procrastinate (after this post)! i will copy all my physics worksheet answers off inet! i will finish the chinese thingums that were due today(whoooops)! i will do my summary! i will start mugging for history on wednesday (darn i would have liked to go see the shakespeare 24 thing)! i will read and re-read the whale rider(and annotate)! btw, rachelim if you're reading this i have an idea for what we can talk about during s&d.

I WILL DO WELL :D


"don't come so close to me. i'm claustrophobic."
"what's claustrophobic mean?"
"i think it means he's afraid of santa claus."
"don't lie, squidward! there's no santa claus here!"

i realised i havent posted a proper post in ages.
hence, i shall talk about wenzday night when i went to jody's mysterious house thats right opposite school.
chionged there after third lang, arrived faster than zhiwen and yingx did. and all the while they were at far east. tsk x)
her house's really cool and has loads of queer things in it. x)
ate dinner and then started on lit pt! (WHICH IS OVER YEAAAAAAH.)
um, took photos all over again cause the other time zhiwen's cam was lousy and took lousy photos :P
then yingxin's phone dropped into the swimming pool and like, died. O: she was totally freaking out and i was totally freaking out and IT HAD TO BE SAVED. so i took off my pants (had fbts inside, ha.) and like went inside and took it out. so my shirt was half wet in all the pictures. x) which is quite a cool effect actually.
but the phone still couldnt switch on aghh. i wish i jumped in earlier.
stayed till like 10.40ish doing the scrapbook. felt really useless cause i was the only nonartistic one in the group. D:
jody's super pro at scrapbooking. :D
went home and bathed, then collapsed into bed.

i still love our blogskin to bits. :D

LOOK AT THE DINO EVERYBODY LOOK AT THE DINO
ahh its so cute :D :D :D

hahah i love the random titles thing.
i love the skin.
i love the dino. :D

this shall be the first post ever with a title. yay titles! :D ha now we can have lame random titles every time we post. and the titles actually have nothing to do with the contents of the post! sounds so exciting!

"no matter what happens, i want you to know that we'll always be cousins. just don't let yourself get too affected by things. focus on the more important ones."

thanks lang, that's all the assurance i need.

I'm sitting here in the boring room
It's just another rainy Sunday afternoon
I'm wasting my time
I got nothing to do
I'm hanging around
I'm waiting for you
But nothing ever happens and I wonder

I'm driving around in my car
I'm driving too fast
I'm driving too far
I'd like to change my point of view
I feel so lonely
I'm waiting for you
But nothing ever happens and I wonder

I wonder how
I wonder why
Yesterday you told me 'bout the blue blue sky
And all that I can see is just a yellow lemon-tree
I'm turning my head up and down
I'm turning turning turning turning turning around
And all that I can see is just another lemon-tree

I'm sitting here
I miss the power
I'd like to go out taking a shower
But there's a heavy cloud inside my head
I feel so tired
Put myself into bed
Well, nothing ever happens and I wonder

Isolation is not good for me
Isolation I don't want to sit on the lemon-tree

I'm steppin' around in the desert of joy
Baby anyhow I'll get another toy
And everything will happen and you wonder
-Lemon Tree, Fools Garden

lemon tree!
i always sing it at those karaoke thingies when its my grandparent's birthdays. :D
yeah its so cute.

i want 4.0 for math oh yes i do :D
and 4.0 for physics too! hurhur physics is mostly math right :D
and 3.6 or even 4.0 for history. i know i can do this! :D history's not all that bad really.
and 3.6 for geog. i think i can. if i mug real hard. which i'm planning to do.
and 3.2 or 3.6 for lit. my lit results are not consistent .-. (eh how come we din't get back our previous lit paper)
and 3.2 for english. i hate compre D: gah i'd rather write compos. guess who got B+ for commonwealth essay :D :D :D
and 3.2 for chinese. i need to do something about this.

and then now we calculate EVERYTHING :D
if i get 3.2 for lit and 4.0 for history, i'll get 3.6 overall.
if i get 3.2 for lit and 3.6 for history, i'll get 3.5(manymanydecimals) something?
if i get 3.6 for both lit and history, i'll get 3.6 too.
if i get 3.6 for lit and 4.0 for history i'll get 3.6+++ which is a happy thing! :D

yeah but i'm aiming for 3.6 because I KNOW I CAN. :D
hehe very big improvement/difference between last year's marks and this year's goals. whoops. i'm not very realistic, am i. but i know i'm smart and i will prove to me that i can put in lotsa effort! and i will be a mugger, oh yes i will. :D

hehe i'm giving myself all these motivational talks (actually thoughts) before MYAs.

if i don't get good grades they won't let me go for training D:

I WILL SLEEP MORE :D

think mugger. :D
i am so going to complete half of my homework due on monday today.
cause ive decided im going to start sorting my life out. and not be so stupid anymore.
ahh the more i think about that incident the more embarrassed i become and the more stupid i feel. =X
this will never last, but while it does ill make the most of it and finish as much homework as possible. :D
shall post about the netball dinner when everybody else's photos are up so i can kope them :D
damn, yihui brought my ezlink home and i didnt even know it o.o
as i said, stupid.

at first i wanted to do something cool and not the ordinary go by name thing, but gah i couldnt think of anything cool to do so ill just do it normally.
dang im so uncreative.

yihui! our wonderful vice captain. (: thanks for encouraging the team so much and being your spastic (and blur hahah even though i dont really have the zi1 ge2 to call anyone blur) self. you gained some weight this year, yay :D jiayou for netball, STAY STRONG. (:

sakeenah! hahahah crazy guy obsessed person. i think thats everybody's first impression of you. ANYWAY. thanks for being such a wonderful ball partner! even though i always have to do the counting but that doesnt matter. x) and for your random comments about certain guys. theyre very entertaining. (: you havent been to a week of third lang already, come back. ): if not id be stuck with yirong! (which is bad.) your blog is so emoooo, STAY HAPPY. (:

jaeyoun! haha cat obaachan! actually i think leechin's more obaachan material but ah whatever. x) thanks for all the stupid conversations during down the line, and the who-can-touch-the-net-more competitions x) its really cool to hear you speak korean. :D you and your violent tendencies, must go for anger management courses hor x) youre super versatile, from GS to GK in such a short while yet you turned out to be such a great GK. :D thanks for your jokes that are so lame everybody laughs at them, STAY YOU. (:

grace! best captain everrrrr (: thanks for keeping us on task during trainings and like pushing us to go do stuff even though were a bunch of lazy people and you get frustrated. ): "die, next time must get more than 10 for ting xie" hahahah x) thanks for making our team talks so amusing with your random jokes and always mixing your brothers up, STAY FUNNY. (:

vicky! BALL! youre always so cheeryy and happyyyyy and you just brighten everybody up the moment they speak to you. love your pao jakcet, haha :D thanks for making everybody happy and for all the silly stuff you say. like how you call everybody BALL, STAY CUTE (:

jinghan! hey buddy sorry i cant finish this in time, im spending way too much time on each person. x) anyway, thanks for the encouragements and the angsting about our stupid brothers and family. misery loves company. oh and for scribbling in my notebooks to take up the vast amount of space there :P you bully me alot but ah what can i do about it anyway. i know deep down inside you still love me. (haha you DO okay) im innocent now, no more huan4ing yi1 fu2s x) ill always be here if you feel angsty or sad or whatever okay, STAY WONDERFUL (:

jodi! thanks for the sweet letters, they cheered me up loads. i'll reply them, some day. :D you and your used-to-be obsessed self, hahah its extremely entertaining to talk to you on msn. the m******d costume remember hahaha (: dont be afraid to unload all your emo, i wont die because of that. x) and i will release all my emotions, some day. the person i release them to will be extremely unfortunate though. x) thanks for everything buddy, STAY AMUSING. (hahahah.) (:

banana! you spastic person ((: its really fun to be xiao qi with you and pretend to be angry with each other and ah i dont know just being childish and stupid. you cheer me up (: oh and stealing each other's stuff. (: hahahah groupmate! im sorry for always koping your zigs and pens and then always bringing it home x) playing zha4 with you is super fun, must be a responsible chinese rep okay! x) and jiayou for netball, musnt give up! theres still many more years to improve (: STAY SPASTIC. (:

yirong! my 3rd lang mate! its rather amusing to always freak out with you about the thousand and one pieces of third lang homework that idiot levet always gives. you skinny person! O: jumpjumpjump no fair you can jump higher than me cause youre so much lighter >< youre not insignificant, be happy! :D you can do it, for netball i mean, so dont be sad! STAY COOL (:

omg im so blur. i was counting, then i realise i had 9 people, then i was ransacking my brains to find the last person, and in the end, it was me. x)
gahh i still have the juniors. i think ill post that another time. i just found out i have a compre due tomorrow.
aaaaah.

There will be no rules tonight
If there were we'd break 'em
Nothing's gonna stop us now
Let's get down to it
Nervous hands and anxious smiles
I can feel you breathing
This is right where we belong
Turn up the music
Oh oh oh oh oh! :D

WE'RE SO PONNING THIRD LANG TOMORROWWWWWWWWWWW (((((((:
HA LEVET! IN YOUR FACE! THEN THERED BE E LEARNING AFTER THAT, SO WE DONT HAVE TO GO FOR FRENCH NEXT WEEK EITHER! YEAAAAH.

dont worry jinghan. the testimonials are comingggg.

hey buddy.
aw i miss you too. i mean the "you" you.
i miss the old times. i miss how close we were. hell, i even miss how people'd tease us and talk some crap about us being together which is so not true.
i do believe in good friendships between guy and girl. (i.e. not all the time one of them would fall for the other and the friendship would just collapse from there)
how did we drift? you just stopped talking and i just stopped talking and we just stopped talking.
doesnt matter anyway, now you have your friends and i have mine and even if we miss each other its not gonna help and theres really nothing to do about it except pretend we're not so affected.
even so, it was nice of you to tell me about it.
i dont think youre ever going to read this, but i just had to let it out. i hope you dont read it. ><

Tonight-FM Static
I remember the times we spent together
on those drives
We had a million questions
all about our lives
and when we got to New York
everything felt right
I wish you were here with me
tonight

I remember the days we spent together
were not enough
and it used to feel like dreamin'
except we always woke up
Never thought not having you
here now would hurt so much

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight

I remember the time you told me about when you were eight
And all those things you said that night that just couldn't wait
I remember the car you were last seen in
and the games we would play
All the times we spilled our coffees
and stayed out way too late
I remember the time you sat and told me about your Jesus
and how not to look back even if no one believes us
When it hurt so bad sometimes
not having you here

aw this song is so sweet.

aw forget new year resolutions. x)

NEW 15th APRIL RESOLUTIONS (in no order of importance):
1. Be good
2. Dont stone so much
3. Go gym more
4. Be more responsible
5. Manage time more efficiently
6. LISTEN IN CHINESE FOR ONCE. (hahah i was playing 炸 and other silly games with huimin in chinese just now. I WON MORE THAN HER. :D) im sorry tang lao shi. although you pick on me the most in class and youd suddenly start shouting ZI HUI! in chinese at least once everylesson. but i probably deserve it anyway.
7. oh heck, listen in history and physics too, although i might risk slowly dying of boredom.
8. MUG FOR MYAS. STARTING... NEXT WEEK!
9. do more stretching and get A for sit and reach next year. gah i missed by 1 just now lah.
10. finish my lit pt scrapbook entry and stop blogging NOW.

haha jodi i guess that silly conversation helped both ways

hahahah my sis' singing how great is our god really really loudly and offtunedly and wrong-lyrics-ly
its damn funny. x) and distracting.

i used to have a family. at least i thought i did.

no matter how much they try to console me that it'll still be convenient for me to go to school, they don't get that its not so much the convenience than the emotional attachment i have to this place and the people living here. yeah i know i'm not moving far away. but they're never allowing me to come back. dudes, there's enough on my mind already without you all adding to my stress.

how come i seem like i'm the only one down and out. everyone else seems like they're having a good time.

moving out somewhere after MYAs. wish me luck. though i seriously doubt i'm gonna be able to pass MYAs its so disturbing. if i don't maintain my GPA of 3.2 its your fault. and considering how much better i've been doing, i want an average of 3.4. i don't see why we can't wait until his A levels are over.

i'm on the brink of grabbing my elephants, jumping on a plane and never coming back. but that's equivalent to running away. i won't run.

i'm tired.

i haven't finished anything this weekend except for chinese. how unaccomplished. spent 2 hours today wallowing. that's how much it hit me.

btw sherry, yeah i don't mind a new skin. it gets pretty boring when i can't see the duck. and the title thing sounds pretty cool :D but i'm not about to go look for one you can go find it. and i don't think they're about to stop it's being going on for quite a few years and my grandmother thinks my aunt is trying to kill her. so.. yeah. overactive imaginations, huh.

I say I'm fine
And I never think about you
But you're always on my mind
If I say it like I mean it
Then maybe I'll believe it
Like it's true
Even if it takes forever
I'll get my shit together
I've been doing so much better

aw i wanna go for the clickfive concerttttt ):

i need a miracle to happen. things are getting out of hand.

'christabel] says:
awww sherry you're too happy go lucky! :D

i am?

im sorry phone for hitting and attempting-to-crush and flinging you onto the bed (well at least it isnt the floor.) everytime i feel so angry i think im going to explode. or implode. i hope you understand and forgive me and you wont hate me and suddenly shut down or something.

something random.
me:"intros are usually like BIG SWEEPING STATEMENTS." -makes a BIG SWEEPING hand gesture-
and when i looked up, everybody was giving me constipated grins and MS ONG was there, staring her msonglook at me. yeah, the one that makes you feel like you just did the stupidest thing ever.

me:"hey look, theres a ball in the field. it looks so lonely. we should go get it back."
cat:"nah, maybe it just wants to be left alone."

LIT PT. O.O

listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me!
jason mraz's songs are so cool.

cheng you know what im thinking we should change our blogskin to something that shows titles then we can randomly put stuff as our titles. like 'elephants are the new black' or something. heh pretty cool huh. x) aw and dont be sad and angsty about your _____ and ______ cause well one day theyd realise its a bit silly then theyd stop. x)

ora was cool. im still taller than ahwaye even though he claims he's 174. haa. um. i spent like $2.75. impressive huh. i manage my impulsivity well. (: um. abit sian though. >< then we went to j8 to um.. i dont know. i forgot. then training. when we did the usual boring stuff and well it was rather stony i guess.

church today. rahr i think im the only loser whos fighting back tears every fifteen minutes or so during service. hahah damn im a sucker. once, i cried while watching brother bear 2. then my mom came into the room i was like oh shitshit what to do what to do. in the end she didnt ask though. x)

then.. i went to my uncles house (as usual) and played minibasketball with this super small ball and hoop. and i so owned cause i was the oldest and nobody else could slam dunk except me and my brother (the hoop was short too.) and i went to the gym with my mummy (she didnt really exercise much.) and i took 13.45 to run 2.4 (OHNO haha at least better than you, denise) and played with the equipments. hehe. my stomachs hurting alot now cause of the gym stuff and the leg raise thingy i did last night after 1209347486 days.

finals tomorrowwww (:

i swear i'm gonna drown myself in math.

it's always these things that you think will happen to someone else but not to you. unfortunately, as a favourite cartoon character of mine once wisely put, we're all someone else to someone else.

it's escalating. it still is.

sometimes i wonder if they don't think they're being rather selfish. i don't want to move. then it comes to me that i might be selfish by deciding i don't want to move. and i decide to forget about the whole thing. but it's kind of difficult because she's constantly complaining about it.

hence i come to a conclusion that i'll move not because i want to move, but because i am filial. and that she's being selfish by not having our interests at heart. i mean, none of us wants to move. and why can't you just come to terms with her. stubborn, so very much!

family has now been placed at high importance. it never took up so much thinking space in my head. i guess i just took it for granted. and now it's all falling apart. don't get me wrong. i still love my dad and my brothers. and my cousins are all really cool. my relatives are mostly wonderful people. it's just two particular people with whom i can't identify my emotions. such a shame. i'm just thankful they don't sue each other.

at least it hasn't come to a stage where i'm given the choice to take sides. my choice of sides is given and guaranteed. my opinion doesn't really matter, does it.

i guess not.

and she wonders why i don't tell her anything.

now i cant remember how to conjugate the l'imparfait. and when to use it. O.O diediedie.

happy international friendship day buddies. (:
what is friendship really?
most of the time i just feel bullied and taken advantage of. and its always me who has to give in, me who gets daoed.
thats friendship?
there are other times but..
i dont know.
today in the ke wen there was something about family and some person you can "qing1 tu4" (um.. heavily vomit?) all your problems too. yeah, i DID listen during chinese okay for once x) i suppose thats what a good friend would be to you then.
if thats the case i havent got a good friend. and not anytime soon i think.

its kinda strange to be everybody's friend but nobody's good friend.

heh levet was damn funny during third lang today O: i was happily writing away about what i was going to do in 20 years time, and he came along and said, "ah, i like this redaction. she wrote about how in 20 years time shes going to get married to 4 husbands and divorce 3, have 24 kids one of which she had with her neighbour." i was like O_O cause i totally did not write that. well i wanted to write get married to a hot guy but i didnt know the verb for marry. i wrote i was gonna buy a big nice house in california and see the world cause im going to have alot of money and im going to learn how to ski and be very happy. which is total rubbish but i had limited vocabulary. x)

then there was like this random scrap of crumpled paper on my desk. he walked over and uncrumpled it and read "meet me tonight at seven." then he told me "how would he know where to meet you!" then i was like ummm O_____O cause the paper was blank and i seriously think he's crazy. then after that i wrote on that paper "MEET ME TONIGHT AT SEVEN" and passed it to yirong. x)

how to conjugate pouvoir?

There you go
You're always so right
It's all a big show
It's all about you

You think you know
What everyone needs
You always take time
To criticize me

It seems like everyday
I make mistakes
I just can't get it right
It's like I'm the one
You love to hate
BUT NOT TODAY.

AH IM DAMN PISSED AFTER READING THROUGH ALL THE CULTURE THINGS AND DOING MY SUPER LONGLONGLONG HOMEWORK, AFTER I CLICKED "DONE" IT SAID: LOG IN SESSION EXPIRED.

I HAVE TO DO THE BLOODY THING AGAIN. AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

i hope our class t-shirt design gets approved (when it's finished designing). i think it's cool. slightly morbid though. but it's really cool! hurhur guess who thought up most of it. :D now we all we have to do is wait for the OM people to come back and for the whole class to approve it and the teachers to approve it. hehe do ms hoo and mrs abbas want it i thought up theirs as well x)

today was an okay day because i had fun and rain was very funny. tomorrow will be an even happier day :D because we only have TWO serious lessons: chinese and physics but mr ho will be gone for physics. so even though we still have to go to the lab we'll be having fun :D yeah and chinese is usually very slack. do we have any homework due tomorrow D: no i don't think so.

hehe if they reject our class t-shirt design we'll just have to think up some more won't we (: which means more fun thinking up puns.

Here I am
Humbled by Your majesty
Covered by Your grace so free
Here I am
Knowing I’m a sinful man
Covered by the blood of the Lamb

Now I’ve found
The greatest love of all is mine
Since You laid down Your life
The greatest sacrifice

Majesty, majesty
Your grace has found me just as I am
Empty handed but alive in Your hands
Majesty, majesty
Forever I am changed by Your love
In the presence of Your majesty

Here I stand
Humbled by the love that You give
Forgiven so that I can forgive
Here I stand
Knowing that I’m Your desire
Sanctified by glory and fire
-Majesty by um i dont know who.

gah. today was bad. i need to manage myself better.
heh i hope levet doesnt give too much homework. and despite what i said about going to study extra extra hard for french, i dont think listening to levet's voice saying the futur simple thing over and over again would help. i think itd just drive me crazy listening to him all day. so i wont. x)

but cdiv got into finals, thats something to be happy about. (:

hahah oh maybe id like start writing a diary. except itd probably be super un-updated since nobody'd bug me to update it, and its hard to put stuff into words sometimes. x) and the entries would probably all be scribbled in and messy. and including the fact that my stupid nosey family would read it the second im not aware of it.

WHO STOLE THE COOKIE FORM THE COOKIE JARRRRR!

despite not getting 4.0 for french i am not sad. :D i shall just study extra extra extra extra extra extra hard for controle 2 and do all my homework and learn my futur simple thing properly and GET MY 4.0 BACK. cause im so not quitting french, and i dont want it to pull my grades down. ):

me and yirong were like ten minutes early for morning training today. and we were like lying on the courts watching stars. x) silly.

hope everyone did okay for 2.4 today and nobody like sprained their ankle while running or anything. x)

i had alot of things to say actually but i forgot everything o.o okay ill update if i remember.

i love dionne.
really.
x)

hahah shes so nice okay! like, she did the entire thing for the english pairwork thingy. and i dint do anything. she didnt even ask me to do anything! ah but today i just randomly wrote some stuff so i wont feel too guilty for letting her do everything. x) and that other time where i missed some lessons and she came on msn just to tell me what homework there was (everybody knows dionne doesnt come on msn. xD)

and you know theres something wrong with the world when youre smsing with this pit who until this year you thought was a chao nerdy weird person and whose handphone youve never once seen before in your life and never really knew it existed.

haha she uses gay smileys. like :-)

there's 2.4 on wednesday!

DIE.

i'm very sad i hate 2.4 i hate running i hate the prospect of long distance i'm very worried i'll sprain my ankle again it's DAMN weak now because of the 6 or 7 times i've sprained it it's not fair some people have never sprained their ankles before and i hate running did i mention how much i hate running no well now you know i can't run for goodness sake at least i can't maintain my speed i can sprint though but it's only for what fifteen seconds which probably explains why i don't fail shuttle run as well i know i won't fail i know i won't do too badly i got a B last year and i missed my A by 3 seconds which means i'm really not all that bad but i really do hate running oh so much


):

AHAHAH I FOUND MY ORA DONATION CARD I DIDNT LOSE IT THANK YOU GOD.
:D :D :D :D :D :D

hahah the CJ7 guy is so damn cute my goshhhhh :DDD
except its actually a girl acting as a guy. O.O

training on saturday was slack. for me. sang some random songs that i learnt longlong ago like in pri 1/2. for example the one i posted last wed x) sunday i went to the gym at my uncle's house! since i thought 2.4 was gonna be on wed anyway, i ought to train up for it. so i ran on the coolzx treadmill thing. :D ran for about 25minutes. with the aircon and everything, it wasnt tiring at all. but the air was super dry so after that cannot breathe properly ah. x) then i randomly played with the other weights and stuff. ITS LIKE A BIGBIG PLAYGROUND. :D i never knew gyms were so cool. i ought to go more often. :D

today we had aesthetics again with the bloody annoying teacher. cant stand her lah. made some icky prune and carrot cake thing. i mean, its okay lah, but you eat alot will become very... jelat. does anybody know that word? or is it just some random indonesian word. cause my mummy and my maid use it alot. x) and COOKIES. :D

byebye i shall attempt to drown myself in homework. i want to become a chao mugger. :D i want to think that other things arent really worth my time. x) OMG I JUST REMEMBERED TOMORROW IS ORA MONEY COLLECTION DATE. I HAVENT COLLECTED ANYTHING. SHOOT. MY MUM'S GONNA BE DAMN PISSED WHEN I ASK HER FOR MONEY.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
how nobody else ever noticed it before yet you care so much about it?

When everything is going wrong
And things are just a little strange
its been so long now you've forgotten how to smile
And overhead the skies are clear
But it still seems to rain on you,
And your only friends all have better things to do.

When you're down and lost
And you need a helping hand
When you're down and lost along the way,
Oh, just tell yourself
Ah, I'll be OK
-I'll Be Ok by MCFLYYYYYYYY! hahah :D
mcfly is awesome. :D

WADDLE OWNS SPORTS FEST :D

haha just before sports fest started, SCGS' yellow house won during THEIR sports fest. :D i knew we were going to win when i heard their announcer announcing that. we won banner design, c1 div, 2nd for cheering and quite a lot of stuff; there were 3 trophies altogether/.

GOOD JOB BUDDIES :D

hehe i drank 6 cups of milo in a row which just about killed me. whoops x) but i was making use of the opportunity! it was just after the cheerleading competition. and nobody was at the truck.so yeah.

telematch was super embarrassing! my shoe fell off while i was running. yirong, if you're reading this, SORRY i'm not taking part next year. x)

went to swensens for house comm dinner after that. which wasn't exactly house comm anymore because only a few people were left. hurhur we ordered the student's meal 5 minutes before the student's happy hour was up. x) "can you stop that, i'm trying to be kiasu here!" haha amanda+jody's phone thing is so fun! it has that super fun gane but i can't remember what it's called. I LIKE IT :D

then i went for training after that, which was super convenient beacuse the stadium is right next to the swimming complex :D yeah then uh we didn't swim which was good :D because i didn't feel like swimming. and nobody wanted to swim either, so because sai meng was late, we just played game (so that he couldn't stop us) until 9 then we did a little handling then we went home :D

i think its rather amusing how i get so caught up in jinghan's crazy claymore thing, let alone even bother listening to her rant about it. x)

OMG AHHHHHHHHHH
I
FEEL
DAMN
STUPID
IM DAMN PISSED WITH MYSELF.
OMGOMGOMG
RAWWWWWWWRRRRRRRR.
I WISH I WAS LESS FORGETFUL.
!@#$%^&*^)*^%&(*%@%*$#@%#
GAH.

anyway. had 3rd lang today. was stoning around and stuff after zhiwen and jinghan and jodi ditched me. yirong was doing some house thing. in class i realised how behind we actually were, and i was struggling to understand levet the entire lesson. dint help that i was trying to sms under the table too. x) but i guess at the end of the day i did understand. me and yirong got like this one sentence right, like WORD FOR WORD right. we stared at each other for a few seconds then we were like OMGGG and started laughing and laughing. cause we (or i, at least) thought we'd get everything wrong.
i want my controle backkkkk (((: oh there was one point we had to do some exercises on love letters. one of them went like this:

Cher_______
Mon ange, mon amour, ma passion, ma douceur, mon petit nuage (my little cloud hahah.), il fait beau, je pense à toi et je suis comme un poisson dans l'eau avec mes rêves et j'ai plaisir à t'imaginer sur la terrasse ou à la mer.
Comme je voudrais que nouse soyons toujours ensemble.

go find out what it means if you bother. though by reading it youd probably understand the general meaning. its so cheeeeesyyyyyyyyyyy.

umm, what else. oh yeah i got 10/15 for history. damn. 3.2.

bye world. (:

MY GOD IS SO BIG
SO STRONG AND SO MIGHTY
THERES NOTHING MY GOD CANNOT DO
FOR YOU!

hahah that song is so cute.

mom:"so how was the match today?"
me:"we won by 10. it was quite close. lost to them in 3rd quarter so by then we were only leading by 2."
mom:"HAHA i bet thats cause they put you in in the 3rd quarter right!"
me:"no, they dont ever put me in remember."
mum:"oh yeah i forgot. youre the perpetual benchwarmer."
AGH SOMETIMES I REALLY CANT STAND HER. SHES SO MEAN. ):
i think friday ill go home with vicky and jinghan instead of waiting for my mom to come (lest vicky gets angry again. D: )

the 对面的女孩看过来 song is stuck in my head. D:
其实我，很可爱！
haha stupid song. (:

have 3rd lang tomorrow! even though id ont want to go, i have to go in order to retain my marvellous sparkly 4.0 for french. i cant wait to see levet again. (haha sure man.) x)

CHEER UP JINGHAN. YOU KNOW WE ALL LOVE YOU ALOT. you cant be so lousy and no confidence and low self esteemed like me. :D

bye world. dinner awaits.

went for training. which was not very smart considering i had a bit of a fever. ah wells. at least no more sore throat. it (the fever) went down a little, so i don't feel so dizzy and headache-ish, except for the occasional throbbing.

"we're supposed to do 15x100m, so we'll start with set number 6!"

we wore the weight belt. ITS SO HEAVY. i wore it with only one weight so it weighs 2kg and i wore it around my waist and it drags me down but i din't drown and i'm thankful for that.

test tomorrow i havent studied D: i hope no one even dares to touch our SA block.