i used to have a family. at least i thought i did.

no matter how much they try to console me that it'll still be convenient for me to go to school, they don't get that its not so much the convenience than the emotional attachment i have to this place and the people living here. yeah i know i'm not moving far away. but they're never allowing me to come back. dudes, there's enough on my mind already without you all adding to my stress.

how come i seem like i'm the only one down and out. everyone else seems like they're having a good time.

moving out somewhere after MYAs. wish me luck. though i seriously doubt i'm gonna be able to pass MYAs its so disturbing. if i don't maintain my GPA of 3.2 its your fault. and considering how much better i've been doing, i want an average of 3.4. i don't see why we can't wait until his A levels are over.

i'm on the brink of grabbing my elephants, jumping on a plane and never coming back. but that's equivalent to running away. i won't run.

i'm tired.

i haven't finished anything this weekend except for chinese. how unaccomplished. spent 2 hours today wallowing. that's how much it hit me.

btw sherry, yeah i don't mind a new skin. it gets pretty boring when i can't see the duck. and the title thing sounds pretty cool :D but i'm not about to go look for one you can go find it. and i don't think they're about to stop it's being going on for quite a few years and my grandmother thinks my aunt is trying to kill her. so.. yeah. overactive imaginations, huh.