i got super pissed today because of math! D:

i am angry at myself for getting 21/40 for math! it's 21/40 i barely passed which makes me super angry because now i'll never get my 4.0 for math overall and and it's below average by a lot and i'm just AHHHHHH because i know i'm higher than average!

and i told my dad so he said it's because i don't practice math so he wants me to buy assessment books but i'm just not an assessment-book-doing-person because i'll look at the book, flip through it, look at it again, and then go watch tv! i think i'll make him buy challenging assessment books which i'll spend hours pondering over so i'll never get bored. the only reason why i like math is because i like solving problems.

i slack too much ): i need to be really hardcore if i want to pull my grades up.

and i'm super angry at my chinese too because i speak chinese at home and i once got 35/40 for zuowen in p 5and i take chinese tuition and i've been speaking chinese since i was very small, but chinese is horrible! my fa1yin1 is completely off and my sentence structures are wrong (they look translated from english) and i always fail my xuan3ci2tian2kong4! and it makes me very sad because i'm okay with learning chinese but i hate being assessed so unfairly ):

i think if i can't even speak my mother tongue properly, i can forget about learning more languages. i need to read chinese books/newspapers!